Uplifted by you

27

Now

How I betrayed Christian's trust in me and how much I had hurt him were the last things on my mind as I approached the large entrance to the hospital. I was about to make my way inside when I saw him through the glass, his hand right on one of the handles about to step out.

I stopped dead in my tracks and stared at him. He hadn't noticed me yet as he walked out of the hospital, phone to his ear. I could feel my heart beating at the mere sight of him, however, it was majorly due to fear this time.

I should be worried about my mother-in-law but I was more worried about what he thought of me now? Was he still mad at me? Did he still think there was a man other than him in my life? Would he forgive my lying to him? Was he still in love with me?

"Are you here already? I can't see you and I'm at the entran..." His words were cut short as he caught sight of me. I could do nothing but look at him, fiddling with the strap of my bag. I should be walking up to him, ask how ma was doing but I just couldn't will myself to move. That was how terrified I was of what his reaction would be.

But this was Christian. The sweetest man I knew.

Even they have their limits Dora.

"Yeah man. I'm still here. Sorry. Let me know when you get here. I'm at the entrance waiting. Alright, thanks man" He ended the call and put his phone in the chest pocket of his suit jacket with his eyes on me the entire time. I heard him heave a heavy sigh then slightly outstretched his arms.

A lone tear escaped my eye as I practically ran into his arms. He kissed me on the top of my head and I melt into his touch "Don't make me worry about you too. This is torture enough"

I raised my head to look him in the eye while still holding onto him "I'm so sorry" I needed him to see how much I meant that.

With one hand around my waist and the other stroking my cheekbone, he asked "What exactly are you apologizing for, Dora?"

"For everything. For everything I've ever done wrong since I met you. Since our marriage"

"Quit it. You remain the best thing that has ever happened to me and I hold no regrets whatsoever or am I mad. Well, maybe a little but I'm just hurt Dora that you don't see me as someone you can confide in with whatever you're going through because now I know with so much conviction that there is something. And I can't help but wonder maybe I had given you a reason not to." I shook my head disputing his thought "Communication is key in relationships baby. I just want to be there for you. Be the one you're talking to about anything and everything"

I nodded "And I will tell you everything?"

"By everything, does that include the real reason why are so close off sometimes or why you were taking the pills without my knowledge? I didn't mean to coax you into anything. I had always thought you loved kids, wanted them but was just a little scared"

"That and more." I let out a deep sigh "No more secrets but after I see ma. How is she? Please tell me she's okay. I can't believe I haven't asked after her health..."

Christian chuckled at my rambling and I felt slightly relieved knowing that had to mean everything was quite alright, right? "She's okay now Dora"

"Thank goodness. What happened?"

"She had a nasty fall at home and that triggered something. She had to go through minor surgery but she's fine now, stable. She has been asleep but now she's finally awake. We are currently in her room now. I just stepped out to see Aiden and give..."

"Hey man, hate to interrupt" Speak of the angel. Aiden stood beside us as Christian and I broke apart.

"Hi Aiden" I greeted him and he gave me a quick hug.