Everything and anything

PART SEVEN!!!

Sorry I was gone for a bit,had to make a little draft for this chapter because I didn't know where to go from the last chapter 😭😭 anyways enjoy!!

Killuas pov:"we're home!"
What was that? I tried to open my eyes,but I was so tired. "When did I fall asleep?" I thought to myself.
Wait...I opened my eyes as fast as I could and all I could see was gons face looking down at me,his millions of freckles and tan skin. OH MY GOD.
"Um,good morning?"
He said with a confused smile
I shot up as fast as I could and grabbed my tank top and put it back on. THAT WAS SO EMBARRASSING OH MY GODDD
"You fell asleep and uh..I figured you could use the rest!"
Gon said rubbing the back of his neck while looking off to the side,avoiding my face.
"I-um.."
I didn't know what to say,so I didn't say anything for a moment,what could I possibly say now that would make this situation less awkward??!???????!!!!!???
"Thanks..."
I said while looking away.
"Oh it's okay"
"Boys! Come help us with our stuff please!"
"Oh aunt Mitos back!"
He got up and ran out of the living room,I sat there for a bit. I didn't know what to think.
I eventually got up and joined them,helping them get their things inside.
I can't even look him in the face. I'm such a bad friend.

Gons pov: the next few days,killua was really different. He barely looked at me when we were talking, if we talked at all...
For almost three days it was like I was in a haunted house,only im the ghost...
But then,I finally got the courage to ask him what was going on.
It was late at night and all I could hear was Killuas faint breathing, aunt Mito got a new spare mattress so he could sleep there. I laid on my back and listened to the sounds around me,I could smell the soft rain outside. Everything.
"Hay killua?"
I said in a hushed voice
No response.
"Killua? Pst you awake?"
No response.
" I know you're not asleep."
I could hear his breathing change to a more fast pace,he was awake!
"I know you can hear me."
I sat up and looked down at my hands,picking at my finger nails.
"Can we talk?"
He didn't respond but I could see a faint nod of his head while he was laying down.
"Did I...do something wrong?"
I expected him to stay down,but he got up and looked right at me.
"What?"
He said. Looking at me with confusion.
"Well,I feel like you've been avoiding me. For the past three days it's like I'm a ghost to you sometimes,I just want to know what I did wrong.."
I looked back up at him,and his face was filled with a look of sympathy and surprise,but also...sadness?
"Gon. You didn't do anything wrong okay"
"Then why have you been avoiding me so much? You can't even look at me anymore."
"Gon no-"
"I feel like I don't even know you anymore sometimes! It took you a whole year to reach out to me! And when you come back you just,you just ignore me? I don't get it..."
"G-gon.."
"I-I just want you to look at me the same way you did before.."
I said through sniffles,I didn't realize I was crying to much.
"So just tell me what I did wrong-"
Before I could finish my sentence I found myself in his arms, he was holding me tight. It felt nice.
"You didn't do anything wrong! I promise you that...it's just me."
I hugged him back as tight as I could, I don't know why but I was so scared of losing him again. I can't let that happen.
"Gon,you don't know how much you've done for me. And it took me a long time to realize but,I do cherish what we have. Every second of it,every laugh,every smile, every happy thing I have experienced was because of you. And I...I love you."
I pulled him off of me,my eyes were so full of tears I couldn't see.

Killuas pov:
"I...I'm sorry, i-i need to go."
I can't be saying things like that,the look on gons face was one I will never forget.
"What?"
I grabbed my shoes and ran out of the door,I need to go for a walk,a run,ANYTHING.
Anything to get away from him,.it's for his own good.
I'm not a good friend.i don't deserve him.
I was about halfway down the hill when I heard gons footsteps behind me.
"Killua!!"
He yelled,I stopped and looked at him,he was standing on the top of the hill.
"Why would you leave after saying all of those things to me!!?? Why would you leave after I just got you back!?! Why would you leave when,when I am here?!! You said you loved me right?! So prove it and stay here!!!"
Tears were falling down his face,his face had a look of despair,it absolutely broke me. Every bit of me,knowing that I caused him to look like that. I can't live with myself knowing I did that.
"Well?!?!"
Gon yelled,opening his arms out wide.
"Gon I-I can't stay. Knowing I caused you so much pain, I couldn't bare to look at your face."
"Stop that."
I didn't realize how close he had gotten, he was walking the whole time he was talking. He was now right in front of me.
"Look me in the eyes."
I kept staring at my feet.
" killua,look at me"
His voice became soft and emotional.
I looked up to meet his gaze.
" whatever bad things you think about yourself aren't true! I would know! I would never fall in love with a bad person!"
My eyes widened as he said those words,they kept repeating in my head.
"Fall in love"
I thought to myself over,over,over,over and over.
He grabbed my and hugged me so hard I couldn't breath,but I was fine with it.
"Did you mean it?..."
I said through sobs,I was now crying to.
"Why would you think I didn't?.."
I didn't realize before but it was now raining pretty hard,but it was wonderful.
I could feel gon pull away,he look at me and smiled. He swept a bit of hair off of my forehead and gave it a small kiss.
"There,now I've payed you back"
He's so cute-WHAT??!?!??!!? HE WAS AWAKE??!???!