𝐁𝐲 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐒𝐢𝐝𝐞 | Milo Manheim

twentyfour

i walk up the stairs and into leah's room and laid my phone on the bed. i didn't pick up the first time because i was so shocked, i just let it ring. if he didn't call me again the next minute i would return the call.

call me a fool, but i knew what i was doing. i want more than anything to call him back instantly, but i wanted him to bug me.

the phone went off again, it was milo. i panicked, but i grabbed the phone and answered.

hello?

rosalie, hi

hi milo

happy new year rose

happy new years
i couldn't help but smile, i missed hearing his voice.

what are you doing?

we're here at leah's house, her dad wanted us to get together and celebrate. but we're thinking of going to a club later on, like sneak off
i say in a serious tone.
what are you doing?

me and louie are at a party with fiona, the tradition they do here is nice

i wanted to hear him talk all night, but i wanted him to get straight to the point. so i give a soft chuckle and wait for him to bring it up.

how's life in LA so far?

good, don't get me wrong i love my mom and sister, but i miss ny. new york feels more home.

good thing you have a week left. then back to school and the same routine.

yeah
i chuckle.
i would love to talk to you all night, but we have to talk. i can't stand that we're ignoring the elephant in the room.
metaphor!

i know, i know
he sighed.
i just don't even know where to start. i know i messed up big.

then start from the very beginning.

okay.
i don't know why i lied to you rose. i know that you trust me, but in the moment i wasn't thinking. and you really want me to be honest?

yes, be honest with me.

he let out a big sigh and there was silence for a couple of seconds. was i about to get my feelings hurt?

i wasn't so sure about our relationship. i didn't know if i wanted to keep this going.

indeed were my feelings hurt.

what made you think that way?
i say in a soft tone, but i didn't let it get to me.

i just feel like i'm always gone and i dont wanna
leave you alone anymore. you deserve to be happy, but with someone who is always by your side.

that's why that night, i just wanted to distance myself from you, i didn't wanna lead you on. but you texted me and i had to make an excuse.

yes i deserve to be happy, but i want that person to be you. you know me, it's hard for me to open up with someone in such a short time and with you i was so sure.