Stop, look, listen to your heart.

Part 8

(My college years) A brother's crush.

I'm in my third year of college now, Jake and I are still together, we're talking about getting married, we share an apartment off campus, I've gotten closer to my brother and sister, but I wasn't comfortable calling Cece mom, she told me I can just call her Cece, and Richard said I can call him by his first name too. We spend holidays together, they come down to Savannah for just about all of the holidays or gran, Jake and I go up to Marietta to see them.

 Jakes parents came to the reality that it's not a faze, and he's gay and we're going to be together, they treat me like their own son, some sad news, Mr. Dave died a year after young Mrs. Dave died from giving childbirth, the baby died too, gran said he died of sadness. He left everything to me, he sold the store, a twenty-two-year-old having two hundred and fifty thousand dollars, but it's in a trust and gran is the executor of the will, I have to wait until I'm twenty-five to get it.

Kimmy left for college in New York we don't talk as much, and Tim of all people came out to his parents, him I see, and I still don't care for him, who would've thought he would be super fem.

 There's a knock on the door, I told Jake to put something on it could be gran, he walks around the apartment naked, most times so do I, but today I have on a beater, and basketball shorts. I answered the door thinking it's gran, but it's RJ, he walked in and said what do we have to eat, dude no hello how's it going, what's up for your brother. RJ said hello, how's it going what's up, what do we have to eat, I closed the door, I said he's such a smart ass, Jake came into the room, RJ kept staring at him, I looked and noticed Jake wasn't wearing underwear under his shorts, RJ spoke to him and went in the kitchen.

Little brother you didn't say why your here, he said a brother can't come visit his brothers, I asked him why he's really here, we talked yesterday you didn't mention you were coming down here, so what's up.

 Dang, Sasha a dude just came to see his brothers, Sasha said OKAY if I say so, I looked at Jake, he looks different than his pic on that site, my phone beeped, they both looked at me, Jake said he knows what the beep is, so that proves its him on that site.

 Sasha said his question is why I'm on that site, I told him before I answer his question, I have a question for you Jake, he said sure ask him anything as long as it's nothing about a female, I told him it's not what I want to ask him how does he know what that beep is. And why are you on that site and your engaged to my brother, they started laughing, I told them I don't think it's funny that Jake is cheating, and Sasha how can you stand there laughing, knowing what you just found out.

Sasha told me pull up the site, and give him my phone, I did he took it and look through the site and said am I talking about him, I said yes, he opened all of the pics and said take a good look at that dude and look at Jake, I did, I said he looks heavier and his you know what doesn't look as big as Jakes.

Sasha said that's because that's not Jake, some other people told him about that site they thought it was Jake too, one of their friends sent the dude a message while they were there and the dude answered back, they all even met up with him, and in person he really doesn't look like Jake the way he does on the site, but we know it's him on the site.

 Jake asked me why I'm on that site, I told them I was just curious that's all, Sasha said if I like both sexes they won't judge me, I told him I'm just curious, but I never been with a dude. Sasha said so now I know that's not his man, and he knows why I was looking at his man's print, I looked at Jake, brother said stop looking and told Jake to go and put some underwear on.

 Sasha asked me does my parents know I'm curious, I told him no, but Tiff kind of knows, Sasha said kind of what does that mean, I told him she caught me on that site, she said she wouldn't say anything, and she thinks Donavon and I would make a cute couple. Bro asked whose Donavon, I told him my best friend, but it's not what he thinks he doesn't know I'm curious and if I did get with a dude Donavon wouldn't be my type. He asked me if I did have a type, what's my type, Jake came back into the room and I stared at him, Sasha said hell no don't even think about it, Jake said think about what, I said it's nothing.

I made a sandwich, I was just curious about Jakes size, I wasn't going to look at my brothers print, and it's poked out just as much as Jakes is. The doorbell rang and Jake answered the door I heard grandmother say don't just stand there help her with the bags, I came out, out of the kitchen, not out of the closet that is. Grandmother said she didn't know I was here, it's a good thing she made enough food to feed an army, she kissed me.

 I help take the rest of the bags into the kitchen, grandmother said she talked to mom this morning, she didn't tell her I was here, I told her mom doesn't know I sort of came down here on a whim, she said and I didn't come and see her, I told her I was, I wanted to talk to Sasha and Jake about something first.

Grand asked how long will I be here, I told her over the weekend, I'll be staying here, Sasha asked am I asking or telling, I said asking, Jake said I can stay, grand said good and all of us can go to church with her, and we better be there, we all said yes ma'am. Grandmother said she has to go, and like she said come to church, and after church she'll make Sunday dinner, grand kissed us and left, Jake and I went through the bags to see what gran made.

After we ate, we went out and had a beer, well Jake did, Sasha and I had sodas, we talked and this fine ass dude walked over to the bar, I tried not to look, damn am I more than curious about the same sex.

 We went back to the apartment and played video games, again Sasha and Jake put back on their basketball shorts with no underwear, I tried not to look at Jake, after two hours they said there going to bed. Sasha said there's an extra pillow and blanket in the closet, they said good night, I finished my game.

An hour later I heard something, I paused the game and went into the back and their door was cracked, I saw Sasha fucking Jake, that turned me off, not that I wanted Sasha to be getting fucked, it just ruined my crush on Jake seeing him take dick. I went back into the living room and finished the game.

 Another ten minutes went by, and Jake came out of the room wearing a robe, he got cake and milk and went back into the room, I'm not curious about him anymore that's for sure. And I was going to beat my meat thinking about him, that won't happen now that I know my crush takes dick. Maybe Sasha has another friend I can lust after, I just laughed.