Stop, look, listen to your heart.

Part 7

(I don't owe her anything)

Sasha came downstairs, I told him it's about time he came out of his room, I want to talk to him, he said he's sure it's about that Cece woman, that woman is your mother, she's leaving today, you need to go and see her, or at least meet your siblings, RJ kind of looks like you, and your sister is  looking forward to meeting you.

I looked on the piano and gran has that woman's picture on it, I haven't seen pics of her in years, So, gran you forgave that woman, she said that woman is her daughter and my mother, and my stepfather is a good man he wants to meet me too. I owe her that much sense she brought me into this world, Gran, I don't owe that woman or her family anything, can't you see that I'm hurting, why did she have to come back, things were just fine with just us.

Gran said but she did, and am I worried that I have to share her with my mother, I told her that's the last thing I'm worried about she'll just leave again anyway. Gran said I need to talk to her, I may regret it, I asked gran why she is, so hell bent for me to talk to that woman, she said I just need to talk to her, and she'll tell me. I told gran I'm running in the park and later meeting with Jake, she told me to think about what she said, I walked out of the house, Ms. Hazel said she saw my mother and her family, she bets I'm glad she's back, I told her to mind her damn business and got in my car, I saw her walking off her side porch headed to my house, I just drove away.

I got to Forsyth Park, and I took off running, why did she have to come back here, like I said things were fine with it just being gran and I, and Jake came into my life and made life so much better. I don't even mind Mr. Dave being my grandfather, something I always knew, he's good to me and understands my relationship with Jake, he didn't hurt me the way that woman did. I stopped running and sat on a bench, I started screaming it helped me cool down from thinking about her, this man was running and asked me am I Okay. I started to tell him to fuck off, but I thought about what gran told me about disrespecting people.

I told him I'm not okay, people hurt other people and move on with their lives, he asked me do I have a higher power, I told him I believe in God if that's what he's asking, he said that's good put it in his hands and let go and let God. I told him that's something my grandmother would say, he said she sounds like a smart woman, he asked can he pray for me, I told him I can use all the prayers I can get.

 He prayed and said God whatever is hindering this young man, open up the heavens and help this young man, you put people in places to help others in your son's name I pray, I said amen. I thanked him for taking the time and praying for me, he said when he heard me scream, he knew I was crying out for help. He said remember let go and let God, I said thanks, he said no problem my young brother, he ran off.

I called Jake and asked him can we meet up a little earlier, I want him to go someplace with me, he said sure, I told him I'll pick him up in thirty minutes he said he's at the house, I hung up and walked to my car, I closed my eyes and said God give me the strength to do this. I started the car and drove home.

When I got their gran asked me did I get her message, I told her I did, she asked did I think about what she said, gran I'm going up to shower, I don't want to talk, she said she pays my phone bill and when she calls me answer the phone I started to go upstairs.

She said do I understand, I said yes ma'am, and went up to my room, I got undressed and took a quick shower, I got dressed and went downstairs, gran said she wants to talk, I told her I don't and walked out the door. Gran came to the door and said one day she's going to let me walk out the door and I can keep on going, I got in my car and headed to Jakes house.

I got to his house, he's waiting out front for me, Jake got in the car, he asked where we are going, I told him just ride with me he'll find out when we get there, it didn't take us long to get to the hotel, we pulled into the parking garage of the Alexander. Jake asked did I get us a room for the weekend, I told him no some people are staying here I need to see.

Jake said oh, he gets it am I sure I want to do this, I told him I'm not but I'm here, we got out of the car and went up to room 1228, I knocked on the door and it came open, this very pretty girl asked can she help me, as she looked us up and down. I told her I'm here to see Mrs. Wright, the girl said mom someone is here to see you, the girl must be my half-sister.

Cece came into the room she said she didn't think she would ever see me; mama said I was stubborn like her, the girl asked her who am I, Cece told her I'm her brother, the girl walked up and said she's Tiffany, and put her hand out, I told her my name and introduced her to Jake. Cece told me to come in and have a seat, she asked can she get us anything, I told her I just want answers, she said she can do that, Jake said he'll have a piece of fruit and a bottle of that water, I looked at him, the girl got it for him. Cece sat down, started talking.

Sasha, as I said I was young when I had you, he said plenty of young girls have kids and stay and take care of them, why didn't I. I told him I was ashamed not of him but myself, I pushed myself on a man who pretended he liked females to cover up who he really was, he said we're not talking about him, why didn't I ever call or come and see him. Again, I was ashamed I loved a man who didn't love me, and the older you got I was reminded of how I made a fool of myself, so I left you with my parents. He asked me why I didn't bother to come to my own father's funeral, Sasha I didn't know my father had died for two years after he died, I still visit his gravesite.

 Sasha asked me did I leave him because I thought he would be like his father, because he is, I looked at him and he said he's gay, I told him I don't care about his sexuality, as long as he's happy with who he is, and live his truth.

That's good to know but I really don't care, and Jake is my boyfriend, the door came open and this boy and the man from the park walked in, Cece walked over to them and said this is her husband Richard and our son RJ, my brother, the kid walked up to me and said nice to meet me.

I asked the man did he know who I was when he saw me at the park, he said no, he was just trying to help, Cece said we met, Richard said yes this is the young man he told her about, she said oh. I told them we have to go, Richard said I didn't introduce them to my friend, I told them who Jake is, and he shook his hand and said nice meeting him.

I told Jake let's go, RJ asked can't we stay a little longer, Tiffany said yeah stay she wants to know all about me, I asked her where they live, she said in Marietta, I told her to give me their address and if I'm up there I'll come and see them. She said Okay, I gave her my phone and she put her and RJ's number in it and their address. She said call her some time, Jake and I left, we got on the elevator he asked me how I'm feeling, I told him the kids shouldn't have to take the blame for what their mother did, and maybe I'll give them a call, he kissed me, and the doors came open this lady got on and shook her head.

Jake said it's the way of the world and kissed me again, we got off on the garage floor and walked to my car, we got in and I cried, Jake held me, he said he's got me. He said switch places he'll drive, we did, and bae drove us to his house, we had sex, Jake did me, I'm still getting used to taking dick, but I love Jake.

Later I went home, and gran told me that Cece called her and talked about me coming to see them, I told gran I'm not ready to forgive her that easily, but I'll try and get to know my siblings that's the best I can do, gran said fair enough.

I got a text from Tiffany, she said she sent a pic of her, and RJ put their pics by their names, and please call her, she really wants to get to know me. I saved their pics and gran is right RJ does kind of look like me, I went through my pics to send her one of me, I need to take some new pics most have my private parts out, that I sent to Jake.

I went into the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror and snapped a pic and sent it to Tiffany, I told her send one to RJ, she responded back she will, and her big brother is cute, and so is Jake we make a cute couple I replied to her message thanks, she sent a smiley face. I kind of like my siblings, and Richard too, the only problem is I have to deal with that woman to be a part of their lives.