Miracle : Dear to Me (Kiseki) The Story of Chen Yi and Eddie

Episode 2

One. Chen Yi woke up alone in his stupid bed to another stupid day. Again. Chen Yi took a deep breath and rolled over , reaching out to touch the other side of the mattress where Eddie would  have been , blond hai peeking out from under the blanket , the heavy , sweet scent of his gel int he air.

Chen Yi hated sweets , but he could bury his face in this scent all day long , because it was Eddie's scent.

But now all this was inaccessible. Right now he was alone again , almost a year spent curled up inside himself , almost a year since Eddie went to prison.

Was this repentance? Loyalty? Punishment?

At that moment , Chen Yi did not know this. All he knew was that the memories of their last night together never left him. The first six months were pure torture , and Chen Yi spent most of his time drunk and lashing out at everyone , getting into fights just to even feel pain. 

In the end , all that anger caused him to shut down emotionally , at least it gave him the opportunity to return to his job and responsibilities , although that didn't mean he wasn't still a wreck under all that pressure.

This night could not leave Chen Yi's mind. At first it was just a drunken feeling of warmth and comfort from another person and then the realization dawned that.

Wait... Realization , madness , pain!

It was Eddie , it was his soft lips kissing Chen Yi's shoulders , and his salty tears falling on Chen Yi's face.

He remembered how something cracked in his chest , the feeling as if a thousand flowers had bloomed there. It was Eddie who cared about him. Eddie who wanted him Eddie who never left his side.

But immediately after that he left him.

A month or two month ago , he overheard his subordinates talking nonsense about him as they wandered around the store , one of them joking about a stick up Chen Yi's ass and how he really needed to sleep with someone. Their laughter suddenly stopped as Chen Yi walked up to the man , grabbed him by the collar and punched him in the face , sending him sprawling on the ground. Chen Yi glanced at the others and growled.

"Don't you have anything better to do?"

Then me ran away , like cockroaches , and Chen Yi jumped into his car , slammed the door and drove off too fast into nowhere.

The thought of being with anyone else disgusted him. He could never let another man hold him like that , touch him , break him and put him back together like Eddie did

He gave Eddie the deepest and most delicate parts of himself , willingly and gratefully. Chen Yi longed to be in Eddie's tight embrace again , inside him ,d riving away all this pain. Sometimes he tried to conjure up those feelings , it was easy to get aroused just thinking how Eddie's skillful lips on his dick or how sexy he bit his lip. Once the first waves of orgasm passed , Chen Yi was left alone with his memories.

Today was no different , and Chen Yi prepared himself for the daily meaningless task he had to complete. He was about to head out the door when he remembered some papers he was supposed to leave at headquarters , and he had to go back to his room to look for them.

There weren't any in any of the desk drawers , so he walked over to the large open shelves opposite the bed and started sorting through the boxes of junk there. In one of them , soemthing at the bottom caught his attention , it was a small gift box made of white marble with a black bow on it.

Chen Yi pulled it out of the trash and noticed that this was not the only box , there were three more boxes of different sizes. All with bows and ribbons with the word 'For you' pritned on them

How had he not noticed this before?

Chen Yi opened the one he was holding in his hand and pulled out a token on a silver chain. He held it up to the light and saw his name and birthday on it , not the actual date , but the one he and Eddie had made up as children , their personal birthday to share together , in memory of what they had lived through , another year , in a harsh world where his parents died or abandoned him to his fate.

IT was as if a Chinese wall had collapsed with tis full force on Chen Yi , these were gifts from Eddi taht had been left for him here since his last birthday.

For the past four years , Chen Yi has not spent this day with Eddie.

The last four times Chen Yi did not fulfill his part of the promise. He cursed himself as he remembered those years , his stupid , pointless obsession with his boss was the reason he missed their private celebrations. How could he be so stupid?

Eddie knew everything from the very beginning. He was the one who was the fool to think taht the older man thought of him as anything more than an adopted son , a mouth to feed , a weapon to sharpen and use at will.

Another memory came to mind as Chen Yi turned over the token in his hand , their last birthday , when he found a cake smashed on the kitchen floor with icing dripping onto the tiles. He removed it himself , without really thinking about how it ended up there , it seemed obvious that one of his men had gotten drunk and made a mess.

He somehow didn't pay attention to the candles ,which would have been a clear sign that this was Eddie's cake , his mind again wasn't focused on what it was supposed to be. 

A frightening thought crossed Chen Yi mind , had Eddie spent these last four birthday alone , blowing out candles and making unheard of wishes , his face streaked with tears.

Oh god...no... Chen Yi couldn't bear it.