loving a hunter | Allison Argent

in my heart

pov Luna: 

"Thanks again for dinner mr Argent." I say as me and Allison both got up from the table. "How many times have I told you to call me Chris?" 

"Not enough?" I said chuckling. Me and him didn't really see eye to eye in the beginning, but we're on a different level now. He's not as bad as he used to be, he's a pretty nice man if I were to be honest. I think he has changed his ways ever since he lost his wife. 

"Dad, we're going out for a while." 

"Be home by midnight or i'll send a search party." He said with a serious look on his face. Allison was visibly embarrassed by her fathers words. "I'll have her home in time, mr Argent." I say taking Allisons hand in mine. 

"Have fun girls... And by that I mean not too much!" He shouted that last part as we were already out the door by the time he said it. 

We both laughed as we got into Allisons car. "You and my dad seem to be doing better." Allison said as she started the car. "Yeah, I really did like dinner, it was nice to have someone be genuinely interested in my day."

She places her hand on my knee as she kept the other on the steering wheel and her eyes focused on the road. "I like that you two are getting along."

"I'm sorry that i'm not able to bring you home for dinner with my dad." I apologize. My parents don't know about our relationship and to be honest i'm glad they don't know. I do wish I could bring Allison over for a nice family dinner, but I know it wouldn't be nice in any way, not with my parents. 

"You know I don't care about that, right?"

"But I do... I don't wanna hide you from them, but I also don't want to put you in that position either."

"We'll figure it out." Allison said squeezing my knee. The rest of the ride was filled with small talk. 

By the time we got back to the tree the sun had already gone down and we could see a perfect view of the nightsky.

"The stars indeed do look beautiful." Allison said as we sat in the same position as we were a few hours ago. "Why this place tho? What makes it special to you?"

"It's just... It's me and Mason's spot... We would spend long days talking about our futures here. We even made a vow. That if ever we were apart we would go outside at night, when the moon was full and look up into the sky." I paused for a second taking a deep breath to stop myself from crying. "He used to tell me that we'd both be looking at the same thing and we would never truely be apart."

"That's beautiful, Lun... Thank you, for telling me." She squeezed my hand. 

"I didn't hurt him, you know?" I whispered feeling the tears run down my cheeks. I just can't stop it at this point, it's all just too much. 

"Why would I think otherwise? Obviously you wouldn't."

"You must've heard or done some research by now, I know you Allison."

"Maybe, but I don't think what others say matters."

"I didn't hurt him." I say again. I felt hesitant to tell her the truth, because to be honest I haven't told anyone what really happened that night. 

"You don't have to tell me, there's no pressure." She said and I just shook my head knowing it's what I want, it's just the how that's difficult. "It's okay, I guess."

"I uh- me and Mason got into an argument and I walked out on him to cool off. I came here being so angry at him that for a moment I wanted to hate him, I shouted it in his face when he followed me and It was stupid and I didn't mean it, I-I loved him... He- he tried to get me to understand, but I didn't listen and I ran. I kept running knowing he would be right behind me until that one moment when he wasn't anymore and all I heard was a scream..."

"It was too dark out and he didn't see it." It stung knowing it's all my fault. If i'd forgiven him and never had ran away he wouldn't have fallen. "If i'd just have been the bigger person he'd still be alive... I know it's my fault, but I didn't hit him with a fucking rock like some sick fucks think."

"You can't hold yourself responsible for that, it's an accident."

"I know that, but-" 

"Hey, don't do that. Baby, it's not your fault." She cups my cheeks with her hands and wipes away my tears. "You're allowed to feel horrible about losing him and grieve, but you're not to blame for his death." 

I nod my head seeing as I know she's right. I guess blaming myself makes it easier for myself and others too. "I just keep imagining what he'd look like today."

"I might not know Mason, but I think from what i've heard about him he loved you and he would want you to be happy. He wouldn't want you to blame yourself, instead I think he would want you to live on for the both of you." She points her finger at my heart. "Always in your heart remember?"

"Always in my heart." I whisper as I lay my head on her shoulder enjoying the nightsky.