Songs I Write | VIII

Conquest

I suggested we went into town to play at some pool
You protested, said "when will we get around to meaning what we do?"
I was confused and illiterate to the writing on the wall
You wouldn't read it out so I took some time to realise it all

Nothing that's said any more is in any jest
And I've realised all I do isn't enough at my best
Though, it was never a test
I tried to ace my marks, I tried to beat the rest
And so it was always a conquest
I tried to make my mark, I tried to impress
Still, even defeated
Defeated

You have practice at behaving so elusive, it became the game
I'm competitive and I love a good board, I didn't think it wasn't in fun when you said I shouldn't play

But
Nothing that's said any more is in any jest
And I've realised all I do isn't enough at my best
Though, it was never a test
I tried to ace my marks, I tried to beat the rest
And so it was always a conquest
I tried to make my mark, I tried to impress
Still, even defeated
Defeated

There are so many thoughts and problems with us
I don't even know what this song is about
I just felt I missed you, to address the issues
I don't want to be brave, I want to be saved
Let me out of this game

Nothing that's said any more is in any jest
And I've realised all I do is regret and regress
Though, it was never a question
I tried to make my mark, I tried to beat the rest
And so it was always a conquest
I tried to make my mark, I tried to impress
Still, even defeated
Defeated