I always saw myself, if anything, a hopeless romantic
Desperate for love, just clinging onto any sign whichever way it spun
But upon recalculating, I'm starting to panic
Maybe I never was who I was, I'm not meant to be for anyoneMy relationships never seem to work
Even platonic, I can't avoid the hurt
Of all the rejection, all of the distance, all the unsurprising surprise
I keep signing my name up just to feel drained out each timeI always saw myself, if anything, a diamond in the rough
Born to be sought for, yearning to call for, learning I'm forced to fail
And upon recalculating, I should really give up
'Cause I never will be the person I should be, my make-believe me isn't so frailBut my relationships never seem to work
Even platonic, I can't avoid the hurt
Of all the rejection, all of the distance, all the unsurprising surprise
I keep signing my name up just to feel drained out each timeI spend all my days trying to behave the way he said he wants
'Cause I want him to stay like all the ones before him, but at some point it's muscle memory
I see you leaving even with you right before me
I know it's not dramatic, it's how these things go
But I don't wanna do that, I don't wanna know
I just want to be frozen forever in this silence
Don't wanna hear my own voice screaming and cryingMy relationships never seem to work
Even platonic, I can't avoid the hurt
Of all the rejection, all of the distance, all the unsurprising surprise
I keep signing my name up just to feel drained out, to my own demise
I keep trying to change but all I do is feel pain now each time
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Songs I Write | VIII
PoetryHello! - Please don't steal. - If you do use any or anything, just give credit, thanks. - 20 years old, England.