Battle For Love

Battle For Love/ Chapter 12

Hindi ko mapipigilan ang aking damdamin na ibigin sya. Hindi ko mapipigilan ang aking isipan na isipin ka. Sa twing aking naaalala muli nating pagkikita ang sakit at tuwa ay nag tatalo. Mahal parin kita yun ang sigaw ng puso. Masakit parin daw sabi naman ng isip ko. Pero kahit ganon paman wala na akong ibang na iisip pa kundi kunin kang muli at maging akin. Mahirap mang gawin pero aking kakayanin. Sa subrang pagkahumaling ko sayo ayaw ko nang matulog dahil sabik na akong makita kang muli at mayakap dito saking mga braso na ikaw lamang ang hinahanap.

I'm ready to face you again and tell you how much I still care for you. I hope this time no interruption. And I hope you will listen to me. And I really hope that what I feel for you was the same as you feel for me.

I can't wait to see her again. To be able to stare her perfect face her chocolate brown eyes her perfect shape nose and my most favorite is her rosy lips that looks always stunning in my eyes. Oh, how I love to kiss her again. It's been a long time since I kissed her. I missed her sweet saliva that fill my thirsty lips. I missed everything about her. Our laughter our movie bonding our breakfast lunch and dinner together. Her cooking. Her delicious foods that she always prepare when I get jealous. Her sweetness whenever I get into a little drama. Her voice when she say 'I loves you' in bed. Her tickles. Her smile that always light up my day. Her hair 'short hair' but now was long as mine. Oh, Jesus I missed Jovelyn Gonzaga so much.

As I was having my make up for later today my mind was in the other world. She was all in my mind like every time. How am I suppose to focus this time when I'm always thinking about her? Shes all I want to see and hold right now. Everything I feel for her before is coming back so quick like thunder light.

When I got finish at my self everyone is ready to go. We packed our things that we need. We arrived at the venue at no time. Everyone is busy, all are moving and all are talking and yelling. I heard some background music so it's not that annoying sounds of people around who is shouting over their lungs.

Me and my group prepare for later. We re-touch our make up and toke out our dresses. Before the show starts me and my group gather for a prayer. We prayed for this show to be end up just fine and happy. After we do our prayer we have this group hug and yell our country " Philippines" to boost our confidence.

The philippine manager walk in to our dressing room to give us "Good Luck" we thank her. Even if I don't like having here I still thank her. Its all because of her I have the chance to see her again.

The show started with a huge "Thud" music boom. I get scared of that a lil'bit.

Divine called to say "good luck" to me and to my group. I was sorry to her I cant tell her what was happening to me in here. To see my oh so sexy gorgeous ex-girlfriend was I'm feeling is I'm cheating on her. I can't blame my self of feeling that way still because I still have a huge feelings for this beautiful
lady I was not expecting to be very sexy.

Speaking of my oh so hot ex-girlfriend she arrived with this young beautiful model and a two at the back of them. I saw them intertwined their hands. The lady was trying to talk to her but seems like she was not interested because apparently she was staring at me while the so sorry young lady was trying to catch her full attention.

When she try to look away I mouthed her "later lets talk" she seems don't get what I want her to know so I mouthed her again "later" . She nodded and leave a lopped sided smile that makes my heart jump. I want to run over and jump and wrapped my self around her and kiss her with all my love. But sadly to say I can't.

I never expected the show will end up unstressed not like yesterday. When I'm done I packed my things and leave my bag to one of my group.

I search for her and end up finding her at the end of the dressing room in front of a stare way to the roof top I guess.