After all I still love you

Chapter ten. Buck

I laid in the bed staring at the ceiling as Eddie laid beside me fast asleep. How did he forgive me after what i did? After Tommy hurt me it took me two years to trust anyone like this again but Eddie? I was gone for two weeks and he already forgave me when i came back. What if he only forgave me so he can hurt me later? Eddie wouldn't do that. Would he?

I sat up in bed to go get a drink of water when i felt his hand on my back.
"Where are you going?" He asks sleepily
"To get a drink of water." I say
"Here." He says handing me his glass from his side of the bed.
"Thanks." I say taking a sip.
"Have you even been to sleep?" He asks looking at my face
"No."
"What's going on?" He asks sitting up "you have to talk to me Buck."
"It's stupid." I say
"I don't care. Remember we have to talk to each other about what is bothering us." Eddie says. We have been going to therapy and communicating is our biggest issue, well my biggest issue. I look at Eddie and his soft brown eyes are looking at me waiting for me to talk.
"Did.... Did you only forgive me so you can hurt me like i did you?" I ask, a tear escaping my eye.
it was silent before Eddie spoke.
"What? Of course not. Buck, i, I forgave you because..... i love you." He says putting his hand on my cheek wiping my tears. "Why would our think i would hurt you?"
"Revenge?" I shrug my shoulders. He chuckled a little and brought me in for a hug.
"Revenge would be harsh Buck. I'm never going to hurt you. Don't you ever think that." He says.

We sat there for a few moments as i gathered my thoughts.
"You love me?" I ask i sat up in front of him as he looked at me confused
"Yes Buck. I have always loved you." He says "do you love me?"
"Yes Eddie. I love you. How after what i did to you?" I ask him
"Because Evan, you were hurting and you only knew how to run." He says
"You knew i would come back." I say
"Yes." He says.
"After everything i did, broke you,yelled at you, broke up with you, moved to Texas, showed back up unannounced." I ask
"Yes, after all that i still love you. I never stopped loving you. And you didn't really move to Texas. You never bought a house or an apartment." Eddie says
"True. But i did work with some pretty amazing people." I say
"I will have to be the judge of that." Eddie says

We lay back down and we fall asleep in each other's arms. How i got so lucky to have a man like Eddie forgive me for what i did to him after my ex died is beyond me.