What the Future has for Us -- Renee Rapp fiction

Chapter 61 - TREE

A.N

Hiii guys, I'm sorry I'm late again. I have literally zero excuses this time.

I promise the drama is arriving soon but I just needed some fillers to get to it !

What do you think it's going to be ?

Anyway, I'll see you at the end, don't forget to vote and comment

Byee, M

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DECEMBER

Renee's POV :

"Yeah," I nodded, my heart pounding. "I mean, if you want to. We've been practically living together anyway.

Max was quiet for a moment, processing my words.

"Don't you think it's a little too soon ? I mean not too soon but this just started feeling good again and ... I don't know. I'm scared we're going too fast" she starts

"I really don't see what could go wrong" I say back

"You're right, it's just new for me, I never moved in with someone"

"Oh, I didn't know, I thought you had" I said, surprised

"No, well I was about to be with my ex but ..." Her voice was low, and she was avoiding eye contact, looking out the window and probably enjoying the fact that I had to focus on the road.

"We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to" I cut in gently.

"No it's fine, I want to tell you..." she paused, taking a deep breath. "My ex and I were dating for 6 months. I know it's not much, but everything went really fast with her. We were about to move in together; she already had most of her stuff at my place anyway. But one day, she just disappeared, everything was gone. I never saw her again. Never got a text, all her stuff was out of my apartment, the key she had was on the table. Not a note, not a text, nothing and I never knew why. "

"I'm so sorry baby" I whispered, reaching out to take her hand.

Max's POV

A silence fell between us. I think at this point Renee was feeling bad, she had no reason to obviously, she looked like she was beating herself up for bringing up the conversation. And for me, thinking about it made me feel overwhelmed.

I really do want to move in permanently with Renee, she makes me happy, she makes me feel safe and I miss her every time she's not around but it's also scary to leave the things that I have. The past few months have been really chaotic and overwhelming and I'm only seeing the end of the tunnel now. But at the same time, she's the reason why I wanted to wake up everyday when I was in the hospital, and I wasn't even remembering her true self.

"You know what ?" I start talking again, not letting her respond. "There is a poem, I don't remember by who but it says ; 'Let July be July, Let August be August, And let yourself just be even in the uncertainty. You don't have to fix everything. You don't have to solve everything. And you can still find peace and grow in the wild of changing things."

Renee looked at me silently, a confused look on her face. I chuckled a little, realizing I might have sounded a bit incoherent. That's just how my mind works.

"What I mean is, I think we should stay like we are for now. Let a little time pass by. Christmas holidays are coming soon anyway, so let's just not think about this right away, and I'll see if I move later," I explained.