Indecisive - A JAMAICAN Story

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POV

SASHA

The holiday is almost over and I can only say it's been the worst.  Sitting here with son I looked at him while he played games on his tablet .

Tears escaped my eyes and I Sniffled. I stretched my blouse to wipe my eyes before he could see that I was crying .

He hated when I cried

Good boy

He doesn't deserve to go through this . Him fada is a big piece a shit.

Just imagine me a this boy a come from grade 8 till now we a big big 25 .

Imagine inuh mi Mada gimmi some bloodclaat lick fi Lowe him and mi still stand up strong like tree weh survive beryl .

Like seriously bruh ????

Nuh Matta weh yuh doooo

Man ago always disappoint and embarrass yuh.

That's on period

Mi know mi wrong fi beat up Jasmine because she pregnant and that a fuckry I take my wrong .

Jason has been calling and texting me begging me to fix things with him.

Things cyah fix suh easy . That a just that.

Just tru minno loud him uo to him fren dem how much of a waste man him be yere.

I honestly feel fucked up to know that the person who took my virginity and the first person fi everything, aguh really ask fi a DNA test fi we baby .

Him ago seh Sanjay nuh look nothing like him.

Mi did mek up mi mind seh mi a leff him from dem time deh the same night mi tell him mi pregnant ,the same night him seh him waah DNA the sane night we guh Taboo.

Right there and then that night mi know we did affi leff.  Mi honestly did expect Trish fi be the girl not Jasmine. Trish have some likkle nuff up ways that's why mi think it would be she. Mi did think Popsii and Jasmine did a link.

Yuh did wrong

Very wrong. Atleast she know r place nuff gyal woulda just ups inah yuh and know dem a tek yuh man. She wasn't like that.  She always kept her distance and mi did a Wanda y .

She did a fuck yuh man

The night a Taboo mi meva waah drink Caz mi know mi did pregnant. But yuh know when reality start lick mi , any liquor mi see mi start drink.

I didn't want to have a next child with him. I'm definitely getting an abortion.  Minno believe inah it but affi do weh mi affi do.

" mommy when daddy a come back?" Sanjay looked at me and asked

I haven't spoken to him about the situation yet. Me a one Mada naah hide nothing from mi baby.

" him a come fi yuh next week dada" I answered him truthfully.  We decided to keep Sanjay week on week off until school reopens as long as him keep mi child outta him badness.  I recently moved out of our house and stated living on my own.