𝗡𝗼 𝗦𝘂𝗿𝗽𝗿𝗶𝘀𝗲𝘀 ᵍᵒʲᵒ ˢᵃᵗᵒʳᵘ

𝟭𝟳

somewhere, sometime in the past

the goddess of lightning was a firm believer of what she believes to be eternity - a place in which everything is kept the same, regardless of what goes on.

this was probably the reason why your family was so attached to their traditions, however absurd they may seem. imagine preventing any kind of progress for centuries because of a short quote from a person whose context you didn't even know. they couldn't know what she truly meant when she said that or if she even regretted saying it at some point. in an era when curses ruled the world, there wasn't much time to write things down and pass them on to the next generations. that's why most things from then were incomplete or barely legible, washed out by seawater or blood out of wounds.

still, that one quote somehow managed to embed itself in the house you grew up in. it was stupid, and yes - you found yourself hating change sometimes, too. seeking comfort and what you know over something new and scary is only natural, after all. change wasn't easy, and accepting it was even harder.

but that was life. the life of a human being, anyway. you didn't know what it was like in the case of a goddess, a person who lived up in the clouds and aspired to do such things. maybe it was easier for her to manage that kind of lifetsyle, but for a human to even try to imitate the principles of a goddess didn't sound right at all. of course, something like that could only fail.

"stop crying already. i'm sorry that we forgot to let you out, don't make a big deal out of it now."

you locked me in a dark room for a whole day. you're only apologizing because you don't want me to snitch. "but i told you that i hate it when you do that! i don't like being all alone in the dark." you cried out while wiping the tears from your face.

kenji just laughed while yami stood quietly next to him. "come on, don't be such a crybaby. you'll be seven soon, and then it won't be long before you have to kill curses on your own. they mostly live in the dark, anyway. so, i'm actually doing you a favor with doing this."

that's not true. you always do things i don't like and then say that as if i should thank you for it. your eldest brother, kenji, made your life a living hell for as long as you could remember. your other brothers rather chose to stay out of your way or ignore you, so they didn't even help you against the bullying you experienced. they just watched it happen or sometimes even joined in. "i still hate it! i hate it!"

they never listened to you, no matter how often you said that. probably because they hated you as much as you hated their actions. you didn't know why. your mother always said that you were something special and you thought maybe it was because of that. in that case, you didn't want to be special anymore. you wanted to be normal, and you wanted to fit in. if being special meant being different and an outcast, then you didn't want to be special.

the only one in your family you felt relatively comfortable with other than your mom, was your youngest brother, hideyoshi. this was probably because he and your other brothers had a big age difference, while you were born only a year after him. you didn't get the feeling that he hated you, and he didn't seem to fully understand the others as well, and though he never helped you either, you didn't hold it against him.