The poems I ran out of time to send.

Fear is the mind killer...

When fear arrives, hope says goodbye,

My eyes fill with tears as I let out a sigh,

You think things are fine,

and for the moment they are.

But wait till the switch flicks,

and then fine has gone far.

It's like a wave washing over,

A sudden lightning strike,

Once it hits, it hits hard,

as my hearts spikes.

Panic sets in,

with my breathing grown louder,

My anxiety feels prouder,

But my fear like a tower,

towering over me.

I wish things were back,

to the simpler lack, of this stupid emotion.

Though as my thoughts start gushing,

and my mind starts rushing,

I frame on a smile,

make this pain worthwhile,

Because I know,

sun still shines through snow.

But all I really want is to feel your touch,

hold you in my arms forever as such,

Feel your safety too much,

and know it will all be okay soon.

But now your gone,

I have no one to hold,

No one I've told,

No one's love as bold,

As we once were.

So, as I sit and write,

All still full of fright,

I know I lost you for good.

And as my fear sets stronger,

and my heart aches for longer,

I know it's better this way,

but why didn't you just stay...