Chaos and Discomfort

Chapter 1

The night Sarah died she wrote me a letter, it reads;

Hey bug, me and John b have to leave for a while. After we're gone you need to tell the world John b did not kill Peterkin, it was Rafe. I know you don't believe me, and I know this hurts you. I need you to talk to Kiara, ask her to fill you in, because we're gonna need your help. I love you Iz, I will be home soon.
                                                               
           ~Sarah

She stuck the note on my lamp shade, I didn't get to say goodbye. My father, my brother, and rose all were at the shore when they got stuck in the storm. They left  wheezie and I sleeping, while my sister died. I will never forgive them.

"Miss Cameron, do you believe that your sister had known John b was going to shoot the sheriff?" A reporter asks me
I see JJ, Pope, and Kie watching me. I haven't talked to any of them since the fight with JJ.

"I don't care Isabella! I do not care! I don't have to tell you shit!" He yells
"Great, so you just don't care now. That's what we're doing? We don't care about eachother anymore, well fine! You know what JJ, I know you cheated on me with that girl, but I don't care! Go fuck all the girls you want! Because whatever this is, it's over." I yell back and storm out of the chateau
"Iz? What's wrong?" John b says trying to stop me
"Move." I shove past him and get into the car, do I know how to drive? No.
They all stare at me as I try to reverse the car out, hitting one of John bs lawn chairs
"Fuck!" I yell and slam my head on the steering wheel causing the horn to blast. I see John b laugh, which makes me mad so I get slam the door shut and get back out.
"You knew! You knew when I asked you where he was! You lied! You lied to me!" I yell pushing him back
"Iz..."
"You knew what he was doing! And you knew who he was doing!" I yell tears flowing down my face
"You all knew! And you lied! How could you do that to me?" I say looking at all their shocked faces
"Izzy I-" pope tries to say
"No Pope, aren't you supposed to be the reasonable one? The one everyone can trust? Guess you lost that name." I say
"Hey izzy it's not his fault." Kie says
"No Kie your right, it's mine. And it's yours, and yours, and yours, and yours." I say looking at each one of them in the eye
"I'm going to grab my coat, then I'm going to leave. And I would really appreciate it if you guys just didn't talk to me. Not tonight, not tomorrow, not ever. I want to forget we were ever friends. Because I didn't deserve to be lied to like that." I say and walk back up the steps into the house to get my jacket. I stop to think, maybe I'm being dramatic, maybe I should hear him out, or maybe I just need to forget we ever happened. I look at the bracelet he made me, I took it off and set it on the table, turned around and walked out. I didn't listened to their pleads of sorrow. I didn't listen to them yelling at me to come talk to them. I got in the car, drove away, and I didn't talk to them for a year. Maybe it was cruel, maybe I was just hurting.

"Miss Cameron? Did you hear my question?" The reporter says
"Oh no, I'm sorry." I say
"No, it's okay. Do you think Sarah had known about John bs plans to kill Sheriff Peterkin, or do you think this was a splurg murder." He asks I glance back over to the group, Kie looks at me, her eyes begging me to scream in the reporters face.
"No, and I don't believe you should be calling it a murder as John h did not shoot the sheriff." I say
"Then my last question for you is , who done it?" He asks
I look back over, I look to my father and rose who were watching me. A saddened look on their faces, putting on a show, typical.
"I don't know." I say releasing the tension in the air
I walk away without thanking the reporter, I take the note out of my pocket and walk over to Kie, not acknowledging the other 2. I hand her the note, not saying anything. She shows Pope, they both nod.
"Come with us, we will explain everything." She said taking my hand
I took my phone out to text my father, be home later out with topper.
"You don't mind sitting in the back right?" She asks and I nod no, JJ opens the door to the car I slide in before he could and then he follows. The car ride is awkward, unresolved issues for months ago still linger in the air. It became known to me after the break up JJ was infamous for hooking up with girls, one after another. Since the break up, I haven't talked to another guy because part of me still belongs to JJ.
Kie puts the car in park and we all get out, I follow behind Pope and sit on the couch on the porch. Kie sat across from me and the boys stood against the wall.
"Before we tell you about, you know, everything. Let me just start by saying I'm sorry. I'm sorry I should have told you, I'm sorry about everything." Kie pleads
"I know, me too." I say
"Okay, Pope you start." Kie says
"Well, the day after the hurricane we went out to fish for some drum, the shore changed sent us right into a sand mound . I saw a boat, John b dove under, grabbed a key. It was to a motel room, jj and him went in stole some cash, and a gun. Turns out the room belonged to Scooter Grubbs. Peterkin goes to John bs the next morning, she knows everything. JJ manages to convince him to steal scuba off-"
"Off my boat, I know that part." I say
"Okay, he steals the scuba, we go back to the wreck, John b dives, finds his fathers compass in the boat. Then John b harasses a guy at the light house, he gets arrested, that's a whole thing. Then one day John b gets taken by DCS, he thinks it's over, but he manages to run away, gets thrown over a chain, and Sarah comes and gets him. They end up going to Chappell Hill, looking at the letters Denmark Tanny wrote, the maps, blueprints, every artifact."
"You mean the ones we donated when we moved in?" I ask
"Yes, those. John b get a map of old obx we translate it to show where the places would be now, that's where the gold is. We found it, then your father stole it, then he got it onto the plane, sent it to the Bahamas, Rafe shoots the sheriff, John b and Sarah die." He says
"Rafe?" I ask
"You didn't really think John b killed Peterkin do you?" Kie asks
"I don't know what to think anymore! My whole world has collapsed in the matter of months! I have no friends! My sister just died! And now my brother is a murderer?!" I yell
"Okay, we get it. Listen, Sarah says we're gonna need your help. And she's right, we need to get to the Bahamas, to get the gold back. We also need to clear John bs name, and you are the only one we can trust who knows Rafe was not home at the time of Peterkins death." Kie says
"So I have to tell the police that my brother was there and shot her. You know how dumb I'm going to sound? My entire family already wrote that Rafe was home!" I say
"So you said he was?" Pope asks
"No, i didn't want to go with them." I say
"Okay, so you need to say Rafe was not there. Tell Shoupe, he will believe you. In the meantime, get close with Rafe, let him open up to you. Find out when the plane leaves, don't let them leave without you. We will meet you there, find the gold, take it back." Pope says
"Yeah, yeah, okay." I agree
"Good to have you back Iz." Kie says
"I'm not back, don't think me helping my sister means I forgot what you all did to me. This is for Sarah, once we get the gold, it goes back to house it was before." I say
"Yeah, okay." Pope and Kie agree
"Could one of you drive me home?" I ask
"Yeah, uh J? Could you take her? We have to go home." Kie says
"Kie-" I say
"Yup." He says dryly and walking out the door
"This makes me hate you even more." I say to her and follow him out, I hear her and Pope laugh as the door shuts behind me. I get into the Twinkie, the van. JJ has the radio up so we wouldn't have to talk. I shut the door, I don't bother putting my seat belt on if we got in an accident it would probably just break off anyway.
We were crossing the bridge to get to figure 8, the awkward presence suffocating us both. I turn the radio down, think about what I want to say.
"The day before everything went down, you remember it right?" I ask him
"Yeah, we uh, we ate breakfast at the wreck with the group, we all went surfing, later we got drunk at the boneyard. We went home and we- we." I says not finishing the last part
"Yeah, so what changed. Between you waking up, say 7 or 8 am to 3? Must've done a lot of hard thinking or none at all, because that doesn't seem like a lot of time to be able to break up with your girlfriend, find another girl, and hunch her, all in the matter of 7 hours? Well of course you skipped the break up with your girlfriend part so that save you a couple minutes." I say
"Izzy, if I could go back in time, there are many things I would change about how things ended. I wouldn't have slept with her, i wouldn't have slept with you, I wouldn't have taken what I had for granted, and I would have appreciated you." He says
"Good poem. Why wouldn't you have slept with me?" I ask
"Because we took our innocent life together, and turned it into a sick pot of lies and hate. We shouldn't have done it, I clearly wasn't mature enough to realize that." He says
"I don't regret sleeping with you, if that's what yours saying." I say
"You don't?" He asks
"No, because now I understand how deep of a connection we had and before I ever sleep with someone else I want to have a deep connection with them before having sex so I can appreciate them while I have them ." I say
"Right." He says pulling into my driveway
"Thanks for the ride." I say
"Yup."
I walk into the house, it's quiet. It's always quiet.
"Izzy! Where were you? Did I see Kiara's car in the driveway?" Rose asks
"Uh, yeah she was hangout out with Topper and Kelce." I lie
"Oh it's so good for you guys to be back into you old friend groups. I'm so happy you moved on from your pogue life phase. So dangerous." She says
"Yeah." I agree
"Hey is uh, is Rafe home?" I ask
"He's in the office, with your dad." She says
"Okay, thank you." I say walking away
"No! I'm done talking about this Rafe!" My dad yells and comes out of the office. I step away from the door and pretend I was just walking by.
"Oh, hey sweetie. You're back early." He says hugging me
"Yeah, homesick." I say looking at Rafe pacing in the office
"Hope your home for dinner, we're having your favorite."
"Oh great!" I say no enthusiasm and step into the office
"What? What are you doing?" Rafe asks when I slouch into dads office chair
"Hanging with my big brother. You know your my only role model left." I say
"God Isabella, what do you want?"
"Nothing. I really just wanted to hangout with you. Rafe it's just you and me now, we're all each other has." I say
"Yeah, yeah we are." He smirks
"God Sarah is so dumb, going into a storm with her pogue boyfriend. I mean, she was asking for it right?" I say
"Yeah, yeah she was." He agrees
"And I mean out of all the pogues she could have picked she chose a murderer, like how insane is that?" I say looking into his eyes to see if he would flinch
"I know man." He agrees
"Look Rafe, we've got to be smarter than her. It me and you against everyone. We have to be better, we have to do better." I say hugging his side
"Yeah." He agrees patting my back
I walk out of the office and into Sarah's room. I lay on her bed, remembering the nights we would lay in here, watch movies, talk shit, sleepovers with Kie in the 8th grade. We used to have so much fun.

"What are you doing in here?" Wheezie asks
"Mourning my dead sister?" I say
"I heard you and Rafe, what's all the 'it's you and me against the world' shit about?" She asks
"Shut the door. And whisper." I say she agrees and closes the door and comes to sit next to me
"John b didn't kill sheriff Peterkin, she told you that right?" I ask her and she nods
"It was Rafe, Rafe is dangerous, you don't know what he's going to do. So be on his good side and everything will be okay. Pull the little sister card." I tell her
"Okay." She agrees
"I love you Wheez." I hug her
"I love you too." She says
I get up and walk across the haul to my room and lock the door behind me. I slump onto my bed, hoping to skip dinner, and forget this day happened. I can't let my guard down with JJ, no matter if I love him or not, Sarah told me trust is the most important thing in a relationship and after that stunt he lost it, but part of me still loves him. I still want to see him when I wake up in the morning, I still hope he's gonna call me to go for a boat ride, he never does. He never does because I told him not too, I may not be able to trust him, but atleast he's a good listener.

*Thank you for reading this, I hope you have a lovely day. The next chapter is going to be a character reveal and information on izzy. Please leave comments to suggestions things you would like to see me do with the book. This is going to be a good story I can already tell. Love yall <3*