Chaos and Discomfort

Chapter Seven

"Be careful, okay?" JJ says as we stand at the bottom of the ladder
"Always." I tell him
"And you'll keep your phone on and text us with details?" He asks
"Yeah, of course."
"I'm gonna miss you." He says pulling into a tight hug
"I'm gonna miss you." I say
"Come on!" Kie yells from the car
"Hold on!" JJ yells back
"Guess you gotta go..." I say
"Yeah. I love you Bug." He says kissing my forehead
"I love you too." I say
"Don't say 'too' it sounds like your agreeing with me." He says
"Stop quoting the after movies." I say playfully shoving him
"I'm not!" He laughs
"Yes you are!" I say
"JJ bro!" Pope yells from the car
"One second." He says back
"Okay seriously leave." I say
"Promise your gonna come back."
"You really think I want to stay in Nassau with Rafe?" I ask
"Well, no."
"Exactly, I'll be back Tuesday. Now go!" I say he walks off and they all wave goodbye to me as they drive away.
"Where were you?" Wheezie asks scaring the shit out of me
"Oh my god!" I yell
"Shh. Where were you?" She asks
"I was out with topper." I lie
"It's 2 in the morning Izzy." She says
"Okay fine. I was with Kiara." I say
"Why?" She asks
"Because we're friends?" I say
"I thought you hated her."
"Things change Wheezie, can you go?" I ask
"It's not your room I don't have to."
"Whatever." I say walking out and going to my room
"Your going with them still right?" She asks at my doorway
"Does it look like it?" I say packing a bag of clothes
"I don't know, you could be running away." She says
"I know your not that stupid."
"Promise your gonna come back." She says
"Yes Wheezie. I wouldn't leave you here." I say
"And Sarah will come back too?" She asks
"I can't promise that." I tell her
"Why not?"
"Because things are different now wheez!" I say
"Trust me I know." She says turning around and walking out
I finish packing a bag, I grab Sarah a pair of clothes in case I find her and walk down stairs.
"Why are you up?" Rafe asks
"I'm going with dad." I say
"Your joking right?" He asks
"No, it's not a joke."
"Why would he take you? After the shit you've put him through with your little pogue friends."
"You mean when I watched him kill somebody and my friend called the cops on him? Or when we found the gun you both murdered people with?"
"I didnt kill anyone okay! Shut your goddamn mouth!" He yells
"Rafe I was there. You might think you were protecting dad but you weren't, okay? And now everything is fucked."
"I'm sorry for protecting my father! For protecting my little sisters god I'm so horrible for wanting my family to be safe."
"How is killing another person going to make us safe?!" I ask
"If I didn't she was gonna kill dad!"
"No she wasn't! She was arresting him!"
"Would you two cut it out?" My dad says coming down the stairs
"Sorry dad sh-"
"Enough." He says calmly
"Are you guys ready to go?" He asks
"Yup." I answer and Rafe nods his head
"Get in the car." He tells us and I go out and get in the passenger seat
"Your fucking joking right?" Rafe says coming out
"Just get in the car Rafe." My dad says
"This is a fucking joke." He complains and slams the door to the back seat
We go to the airstrip and board the plane, I sat on the opposite side of them and slept the entire ride.
"Get up, we're in the Bahamas." Rafe taps my shoulder and i jolt up
"Don't touch me." I say swatting his hand away
"Jesus Christ." He sighs and walks away
We get off the plane and they have a car waiting for us, we get in and dad drives us to the house.
"I didn't just bring you here because I needed your help. I want to show you guys something." He says walking us to a safe
"Is this deal you've been working on?" Rafe asks
"You could say that." He says
"You ready?" My dad asks
"What do you got in there? The hope diamond?" I ask
He opens the safe revealing all the gold, the gold pope told me about. I didn't think it was real, I knew John bs father was searching for it with my father. I didn't know my dad kept looking after big John went missing.
"Holy shit." I say
"Is it real?" Rafe asks
"Son, that's the realest thing there is." My dad says Rafe picks up a bar and holds in in his palm
"How... how did you-"
"I found it." He says immediately I knew it was a lie
"You found... you found the royal merchant." Rafe says
"It's what all this has been about. All this gold. It's ours  now." He says picking up more bars and handing them to me
"Oh my god." I say almost dropping them
"It won't bring Sarah back, but it will save us." He says sending shivers down my spine
"By the time Hurricane Agatha hit... we were in a financial hole. A deep one, we're not in a hole anymore." He says laughing at him self
"I mean, I'm looking... I'm looking at what here?" Rafe asks
"Half a billion." I guess
"Half a billion?" Rafe says looking to my dad and he nods
"Oh my god." Rafe says
"Holy shit!" I say
"Dad! What? How is this possible, huh?" Rafe asks
"This is what I need to tell you guys, look at me look. I'm on you. I'm real hard on you two, and I know that. That's why you need to hear this. That day on the tarmac, right? This is what was on the cargo plane. Rafe you are the only reason we were able to fly that out. You Rafe." My dad says
"Oh my god." I say
"We're bringing it all home today. Escorts are waiting for us outside." My dad says
"Alright." Rafe agrees and we head outside to meet them
"What I want you to do is bring the car to the airport. It's about a half an hour from here." He tells them
"Yes sir." A man says
"Alright let's go." My dad says getting into the truck
"Get in the middle." Rafe tells me and I scoot over
"Buckle up." My dad tells us
"Uh dad..." I say watching little kids run out and bang onto the truck
"What is this?" Rafe asks
"Oh god. It's just some kids." My dad says
"No! No! Guys get away from the car!" My dad yells
"Holy shit." I sigh leaning my head back against the seat
"Get away!" He yells honking the horn
"Get out of here! Go! Go! Go!" Rafe yells
"What the fuck!" I say as a girl sprays water on the windows
"Get off!" Rafe yells
"Get out of here!" My dad yells and begins driving again before the truck infront of us get a flat
"It's a trap! It's a trap!" He yells
"Yeah no shit!" Rafe yells
"Mike let's go! Move the goddamn car!" My dad yells
"Dad!" Rafe yells
"We gotta get out of here." I sigh
"He's got us trapped. They can't go forward" He says
"Dad." Rafe says
"Go! Go! Go!" Rafe yells
"The alley!" I say
"Move! Get out of the way!" He yells at people putting a fruit stand out
"Where are we going! Find where we are!" My dad yells
"Alright! Alright! This road goes to the same place we're good! We're good!" Rafe tells him
"Is this really necessary?" I ask
"Yes izzy." Rafe says
"Do you see anyone in the mirror?" My dad asks
"No." I say
"Are we going the right way?" He asks
"Yeah, yeah, yeah." Rafe says
"Dad the roads closed." I say pointing to the stop sign
"Oh my god." He says
"What do we do? There's no where to turn right?" He asks
"Get the gun. Rafe get the gun. Just hide it." He tells him
"No! No! No' we're not shooting these people!" I say
"We're not izzy! It's just for caution." He says
"This is fucking insane." I say
"What's going on?" My dad asks the man
"Sorry man! Roads closed!" He says
"Nobody coming through!" His partner says
"Well can you just let one truck through?" My dad asks
" dad just turn around." I whisper
"Shut up izzy." Rafe tells me
"I don't think so. Sinkhole. Massive." The girl says
"I'm begging you guys if-"
"Let me see your hands." The man says holding a gun to us
"Holy shit." I whisper
"Don't do anything stupid." The girl says holding a knife to Rafe
"Get out. Come on girly." He tells me
"Where's Sarah?" I whisper so my dad can't here
"Don't know her." He says
"Everything nice and easy." He says
"You're gonna walk to the sign. Your gonna move the signs on the side for me. You go to that sign, you go to that sign. Girly you stay here." He says
"I don't know what this is, but you have to help me. I know you know who she is. Please. She's my sister." I whisper
"I don't know what you're talking about." He says
"Move the barrels." The girl tells them
"Throw another barrel and I'll blow your damn head off." The man says to my father
"Take two steps back. Easy! Get on your knees!" He tells us
"Hands up. Kiss the ground." The man says holding the gun to my head
"Who are you? Who are you?" My dad yells
"I'm the royal commission for the redistribution of wealth. Kiss the ground." He says
"You guys are idiots. Our escorts are right behind us. Rafe says
"Rafe just shut up." I say
"A wise guy, huh?" She says
"Go! Go! Hurry!" He yells at someone and I look over my shoulder and see Sarah run
"Izzy?" She says
"Sarah?" I say
"Get down!" The girl yells
"No let her come!" Sarah yells
"Okay. Go!" He tells me and I run
"Izzy you bitch!" Rafe yells
"Oh my god." She says pulling me into a hug
"I thought you were gone." I say tearing up
"I'm right here." She says holding my face
"Well this just got more insane." John b says
"Hey." I say
"Hey." He says pulling me into a hug
"I'm sorry." I say
"Don't be." He says
"Sarah!" My dad yells
"Get down." He yells
"Sarah! You're alive!" He says
"Don't talk to her! Stay down!" The girl yells
"Stay back." John b tells him
"Stay down!" The girl yells again as he stands up
"Sarah! You're alive!" He yells
"I love you baby!" He says
"Stay down!" She tells him hold the gun to his head
"Why do you have a gun." I whisper
"Shh it's okay." Sarah says pulling me behind him
"Stop!" John b yells
"Hey!" Rafe yells and fires his gun
"Oh my god!" I yell
"We gotta go, Izzy get in." John b tells me
"You're a coward!" Rafe yells
"Sarah you good." I ask and she nods
"Oh my god." John b says
"Oh my god." I say
"Come on. It's too heavy. The gold weighing us down." John b says
"Is there anyway to make this thing go faster?!" Sarah asks
"I'm going as fast as this hunk of shit can go!" John b says
"What do we do?!" I ask
"I don't know hold on!" John b yells cranking the wheel to the left
"Oh my god!" I yell as he whips into a corn field
"We got the gold. We did it. Oh my god." John b says
"Sarah?" I say looking at her bloody hands
"I'm shot." Sarah says
"Okay. No it's okay, your okay." I freak out
"Okay Izzy you need to push down, okay? Right there." John b tells me
"Yeah. Yeah okay." I say
"Ow ow!" She whines
"Oh my god I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I cry
"I know it hurts. We've gotta stop the bleeding." He says
"I'm sorry, im so sorry." I say
"Look we gotta take this shirt off." He says
"Okay, I will hold down. Sarah you take it off okay?" I say
"Okay." She whines
"John b call the guy!" I say frantically and he pick ups his phone
"Hey, yeah we got the gold. But we have bigger problems okay. Sarah's been shot in the gut I need your help." John b says
"Quickly please!" I say
"We're up in the cane field a mile up on the left. I will drop a pin I don't know how to get here." He says
"Your okay, it's okay." I tell her, tears streaming down my face
"Help is on the way, I just need you to stay with me." John b says
"Their here." I say
"Okay Sarah I'm gonna get out and help you out. Izzy go get in the truck you're driving." John b says
"Okay yeah, okay." I say
"She doesn't know how to." Sarah whines
"I just texted you the address of a doctor! Tell him I sent you!"
"Okay, and it's a hospital right?" I ask
"No. You wanna get caught?" He asks
"Does it really matter right now?" I ask
"he's better than any other doctors in that shit can. He's my guy, he gotcha."
"Sarah look, you're gonna be okay, baby just breathe. Relax everything's good." The man says
"We're gonna meet at the wharf in eight hours no more it's hot as hell out there"
" And this is him right?" John b asks
"That's him. He got you. He's a good guy."
"T? thank you" Sarah says
"We good baby."
"Go! Go! go!" Cleo yells and I pull away
"What if they... what if they take the gold?" Sarah asks
"Look screw the gold, okay? We're gonna get you to a doctor and we will worry about it later." John b says
"Izzy! Truck!" Sarah yells
"Shit!" I say swerving onto the right side of the road
"Sorry guys..." I say
"Your fine, your fine. Just step on it okay?" He says
"I'm going, I'm going."
"Your destination is in four miles." The gps says
"We're almost there, hold on." I say gunning it and hitting a trash can by accident
"Okay, Izzy in order to actually help Sarah we have to get there in one piece." He snaps
"I'm going the best I can John b!"
"Ok,ok we're here."  I say
"Hold on I will help you get out." John b says pushing me out and running to Sarah's side
"Ow." Sarah groans
"Do you guys know where the doctor is?" John b asks a couple in the street
"Up there." The man says
"Ok."
"Thank you!" I say
"John b your gonna break it." I say as he obnoxiously taps the buzzer
"Come on what do you want." The mic says
"I'm looking for Dr.Nygard." John b says
"Dr nygards not here." He says
"We'll do you know where we can find him?" John b asks
" who are you?" He asks
"We are friends of Terrance's now please someone has been shot!" He yells
"Oh hell. There's a camera up to your left, look at it and let me see your faces." He says and we all look up to him
"Alright go through the bar there's some stairs on the right." He says
"Thank you." I sigh
"Ok, Iz grab her other side." John b instructs me
"I'm going to push down, you hold on to me. On 3. One, two, three." And we switch places really quick
"Ow." Sarah groans as we walk up the stairs
"Doc!" John b yells
"Bring her in here!" The doctor yells
"Doc, where are you?!" He asks
"Here! Right here!" He yells
"Hey! Hey!" I say
"Yeah. Come on. Oh! It's not her head is it?" He asks
"No, no. It's not here head." I say
"I don't do heads." The doctor says
"Okay, two more. Two more." John b tells Sarah
"Woah, woah." The doctor says looking at Sarah's stomach
"Go to the left over there." He tells us
"Looks like they got you pretty good didn't they?" He asks
" where do you want us to put her doc?" John b asks
"Take her straight down the hallway here. Damn she's in worse shape than I am." He says
"The table John b." I point and help him put her on
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I tell her and grab her hand
"It's all right. Hang on a second here." The doctor says
"Stay with me. Stay with me." John b says kissing her forehead
"Tell me what to do." I say
"Let's have a look at this thing." He says and John b unzips her shorts
"Ah. Oh boy." The doctor says
"What? She's gonna be okay, right?" I ask
"That remains to be seen." He says
"What?!" I say
"I can't determine that yet." He says
"Can you take it out?" I ask
"I'm gonna start an iv for anesthesia. We will look more into it after." He says
"Okay." We agree
"Put some pressure on that wound, here." He tells John b
"Yes, sir." John b says
"What kind of doctor are you?" I ask
"I'm not a doctor. Not in the eyes of the law, anyway. I'm more like a service provider." He says
"Wh-what does that mean?" I ask
"Tell you what, if you find a cure for arthritis in med school, the higher ups don't like that. You know, the powers that be don't give a damn about curing anything. All they care about is the green stuff, the money, the bottom line. Follow me?" He says
" yeah, totally." John b says
"Is there anything else I should be doing?" I ask
"We don't really know anything about this." John b says
"Just be quiet a bit. Take that off and let me study it a minute." He says and John b takes the gauze off
"Oh god I'm gonna puke." I gag
"In the sink, over there." The doctor says I gag into it but I can't throw up because I haven't eaten in like 2 days.
"Weak stomach?" He asks
"A bit." I say walking back to the table
"She's bleeding a little on the outside and she's bleeding a lot on the inside." He says
"What does that mean?" John b asks
"It means I can go in."
"You're gonna sanatize that right?" I ask
"Good call, kid." He says
"Now when I do go in, she's gonna lose a lot of blood."
"No. No." John b and I say
"Or it may not kill her. Point is I can't be held liable for this either way. " He says me and John b look at eachother
"You're not liable, all right?" John b says
"Yeah. There's one more thing. A job like this costs 4k." He says John b takes a chunk of gold out of his pocket and hands it to the doctor
"I'm not even gonna ask." I say
"Your shittin me." The doctor says
"No." John b says
"Please just, please save her." I say
We watch the doctor take out the bullet, I was nauseous the entire time watching him do that.
"That was no garden variety extraction, I can tell you that. Okay, give me the scissors." The doctor says and John b hands then to him
"And then give me that salty dog, if you would, please." He says
"Should you be drinking right now?" I ask
"I'm done the surgery, we just have to wait." He says as John b hands him his drink and he goes to sit in his living room
"I need air." I say
"Okay." John b says
I go out to the balcony, a trail of Sarah's blood trickling down the stairs. I can't help but think it should've been me who got shot, Rafe was aiming for me. He was mad at me, because I left them for Sarah. I sat out on the balcony for half an hour before going back in, assuming Sarah would be awake by now.
"Is she awake?" I ask JB
"No, not yet." He says checking her pulse
"Hey doc! Doc! Come here!" John b says
"Can you feel it?" The doctor asks
"I feel it here but not on her wrist." He says
"Oh shit." The doctor says
"What? What's wrong?" I ask
"She's got to much fluid, mores gonna kill her. She should be waking up by now." He says
"Hey." I say
"Izzy." She whispers
"Hey, hey I'm right here." I say and she closes her eyes
"Hang on. I gotta go get something. I'll be right back." He says
"Hey sleepyhead." John b says stroking he cheek
"Where is it? Shit!" Doc yells
"What? What do you need?" I ask
"I can't find it!" He yells
"Doc?" John b says as Sarah's minister beeps rapidly
"Sarah?" I say walking back over
"No, no,no,no." I cry when her monitor goes off
"Hey!" John b yells
"Do you know cpr?" He asks me
"No." I answer
"That's the sternum. Push on it until I tell you to stop." He says
"Okay. Okay." I say and I start pushing
"Try not to break her ribs." He says
"What?!" I say
"Okay." He says and I stop pressing
"Again." He tells me and I start cpr again
"How long?" I ask
"Until it works." He says
"Stop." He says
"She's not awake?" John b says
"No, what are you doing?" I ask when he switched the monitor off
"She just lost to much blood kids." He says
"No! No! You said your a 'service provider' so provide service! Help her." I say
"I've done everything I can." He says walking away
"No." I sigh
"I'll leave you with her." He says
"You do cpr. I'll do the breath thing." I say and John b nods
"One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine. Ten." John b mutters
"Why isn't it working?" I say fighting tears putting the mask on her
"Come on." I cry and John b starts compressions again
"Come on, hey." He cries
"Sarah, please." I say
"Hey! Please don't die." John b cries
"Sarah wake up!" I say tapping her face
"Come on!" John b yells
"Shit!" I yell slamming the door open and walking out the the balcony

Death and dying, the concept of one not being able to come back from the dead. Death is dark, death is sad, it's black, grey, Smokey, cold. Dying, it's different watching your sister die, and watching her 'die'. When I heard they were lost at sea it was almost like it wasn't real. I had this gut feeling inside of me telling me she's alive, their okay. I was right, but right now my gut is sending mixed signals.