I Don't Mind

Chapter 30

Adrian's POV

After dinner, me and Derek went back to the dorms and chilled for the rest of the night. He still doesn't know that Devin and Alicia probably saw us kissing in public, and I don't even know for sure if Devin and Alicia saw us, but when I looked up, there they were, staring at us. Maybe I'll try to talk to them at some point, to try to trick them into telling me that they did see me and Derek kissing in the restaurant. 

If they did, I'm telling Derek immediately. I want there to be no secrets in our relationship other than him not being out, which I'm fine with because his mom is homophobic. It wouldn't be the best idea for him to be out. 

I went to sleep last night with a very cloudy mind. I texted Devin to ask if he and Alicia could swing by tomorrow so I could talk to them. I'm gonna word a few questions in a certain way to see if they actually saw us kissing. 

The next morning...

I'm anxiously waiting in my room for Devin and Alicia to get here. I trust them. I know they won't say anything to anyone else. Devin had to deal with this shit with Cameron and Aaron before, and he didn't tell anyone else other than Cam, and that was what kind of screwed some things between Cam and Aaron up temporarily. They're together now though, and happier than I've ever seen people before. 

I'm sitting on the couch, biting my nails like crazy, craving a lemonade, and stressing about what they're gonna say. I might be stressing about what Derek is gonna say soon. If Devin and Alicia actually did see us, I don't want Derek to freak out about it. I want to stay with him forever. 

I hear the door open and in walks Devin and Alicia, their faces looking pretty awkward. That does not bode well for me. If they walked in super nonchalantly or looking confused, it would've made me more hopeful, but it seems like they definitely know what's up. 

"Hey," I say timidly. 

"Hi, Adrian," Alicia says. 

"So, uh-" I start but Devin cuts me off. 

"Listen Adrian, we both saw you kiss Derek yesterday. We are not gonna sugarcoat anything here, we saw you two and just want to let you know that there is not chance we will tell anyone. We understand if Derek is gay or bisexual and doesn't want to come out. We will respect his decision and not tell anyone. We have no need to tell anyone, we wouldn't be getting anything from that. I hope you understand that we won't out him, okay?" Devin tells me. 

"Yeah. We respect you and Derek," Alicia says. "By the way, you two are super cute together." 

"Uh, thanks. You've dealt with this before, right?" I ask them. 

"Yeah. Cam and Aaron." 

"Should I tell Derek that you know about us?" 

"I think you should let him know. It's better to tell him now then to have it abruptly ruin something in the future. I think Derek cares about you too much, by the way, Adrian. He wouldn't want to hurt you," Devin tells me. 

"He really likes you. I don't think it's normal for a guy that hasn't come out to kiss someone in the middle of a packed restaurant. That's basically coming out right there," Alicia points out. 

"Yeah. I guess that's true," I realize, still stressing either way. "But I'm still scared. What if he isn't okay with it?" 

"Then win him back again. Even if he doesn't want to still date you, you'll probably stay friends, and that's how you guys got together originally, right?" Alicia asks. 

"Yeah. He just asked me one day if he could kiss me. I didn't expect it at all. And yes, we've been dating for the last two weeks and he's been so good to me."