I Don't Mind

Chapter 10

Adrian's POV

I have to talk to Cam and Aaron about how to maintain a relationship. Their relationship is only a few months old, but they have not stopped clinging to each other constantly. It's really cute to see them so happy with each other, and I need to know how to maintain that kind of happiness. I could also ask Alicia and Devin, they've been dating for even longer than Cam and Aaron, and love each other a similar amount. 

I have to talk to them, but I also have to spend more time with Julian and try to fall in love with him. I don't know what made me fall in love with Derek other than him being a nice guy as well as a super fucking hot guy, and those things apply to Julian as well, but it's not working as well. I need to spend more time with him and just figure out what I really want. 

If Julian is who I want, then Julian is who I'll go after. I don't know if I really want him though. I thought I did, but when he told me that he liked me I got confused and I don't know if I really want him more than someone else. 

Like I said, Derek ruined me by raising my standards for guys to the roof, and Julian is barely able to hit that roof if he jumps high enough. 

I walk back to the dorm building, which is luckily not even that far from the Chipotle. I should go to Chipotle more often, it's really fucking good. If anything good came out of that lunch 'date' it was the food and the fact that he paid for me. I feel bad now though, I should pay him back. That would be super awkward though and might make him think I don't like him back.

Fuck! What am I gonna fucking do? Maybe I like Julian, but as a friend. Someone that I can relate to on a deeper level, but someone that I don't want romantically. I don't know how to say that without coming off as rude. 

Once I get back to the dorms, I realize I have no idea where Cam and Aaron's room is. When I do find it, I hope to God they aren't fucking right now because that would be mortifying to walk in on, for both me and them. I would never be able to not see that in my head, and to be honest, that's not the worst thing ever. They're both beautiful people and if I had to choose two people to have engraved in my mind fucking forever, it would be them. 

I just go to my room instead, hoping that Devin knows where they're staying. It's in the same building, I know that much, but where it is, I have no idea. 

I let myself into me and Devin's room, and he and Alicia are eating food while they watch something on one of their computers. 

"Hey Devin, do you know where Cam and Aaron are staying?" I ask.

"No, I don't. Ali, do you know? Aaron's your brother, you've probably been in there before."

"Yeah, they're staying I think two rooms down to the left across the hall," she says and I nod.

"Thanks," I say.

"No problem."

I leave the room and walk over to Cam and Aaron's room. I realize I can't walk in on them fucking because I don't have a key. They have it so good being roomed with each other so they can just do whatever. 

I knock on the door and wait for a moment before Aaron opens the door.

"Hey Adrian, what's up?" 

"Nothing much. I just need to talk to you and Cam for a sec, I need relationship advice and since I'm gay I though I would go to the healthiest gay couple I know," I state and he smiles and nods.

"Yeah, no problem. Come in. Cam! Adrian is here! He needs relationship advice!" Aaron calls out in the direction of their bathroom. "He's just peeing right now, he'll be out soon."