Chris POV Chris: you shoulda seen the way they looked at me. Momma J: Listen, I don't appreciate you blowing up like that. Saying you hate Beyonce, did that feel like that was coming from the gut? Chris: I was angry, we were pissing each oth- Momma J: I don't think that came out of no where. Bey and I haven't been getting along for a while now and it's got me questioning things. Momma J: do you still love her? Chris: yes, but right now, I-I'll always love her. But *pause* Momma J: mhmmm you both really need to have a talk about what yall want. Chris: we will. Definitely. But what do I do about Ro? *tears up* the look on her face is engraved in my brain. She sees me as a monster. Momma J: oh Christopher my son, that beautiful little girl loves you so much. You may have spooked her, but you will win her over. Chris: thanks momma *gets up from couch and hugs* can I sleep here tonight? Momma J: of course my son. Midnight Beys POV I can't get what happened earlier outta my head. It took forever to get my Royalty down. I keep calling Chris but it continuously goes to voicemail. I call my momma who of course answers right away. I explain to her everything and I start bawling my eyes out. Bey: now what do I do momma? Do you think he's cheating on me right now? Momma T: Beyoncé, do you love him? Bey: what? Momma T: Do you still love Chris? Bey: yes-I-We just I guess, lost touch. Momma T: yall need to have a real talk. No screaming, no yelling. Talk. Bey: I know. We will, I'm scared of the outcome if you know what I mean. Momma T: if come to be, you still have Roro and don't give up yet. Just see where yall at. Bey:*sniffs* ok goodnight momma Momma T: goodnight baby, please sleep Bey: I'll try*hangs up* I lay back down in bed and realize I can't fall asleep. I go and take a Benadry and lay back down and pass out. Morning I wake up and feel the bed empty without Chris. Ugh, we've been thought therapy before but this time around, I don't know. I still ain't even know where tha dude is. I stretch and get up outta bed and walk to Royalty's room and she's playin in her crib which she's about outgrow.
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Her smile lights up my life. Bey: hello my baby. I pick her up and bring her downstairs and we go into the living room and I put on Mickey Mouse for her and she plays with her toys while I go get us some cereal. I take one more look at her and she looks just like her daddy. It hurts everytime I think about him now. And the discussion we finna have whenever the hell he come back. I pour milk and Cheerios in a bowl for the both of us. I sit down with her on the floor and just as I was about to feed her, the door opens. Chris comes in with flowers and a stuffed animal for Ro. She spots him and immediately crawls behind me. He's holding his tears back so hard. Bey: Royalty, it's daddy. Look what he's got. She pokes her head from out behind me and he gets on his knees infront of me and we're now face to face. I gently try and push Royalty out but she keeps hiding. Royalty: scary dada Chris: *tears slip* dada sorry babygirl. Royalty: sowy? Chris: yes I sowy. She coo's and then runs to him and he hugs her in his arms and I can see th weight lift off his shoulder. I'm still the weight on the other. But it was beautiful to witness them hug. Chris: look dada sorry so I got you He brings out the stuffed animal from out behind him. What she does next spoke volumes. She grabbed it, looked at it and threw it across the room and went back to give him another hug.
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It was a much needed one. I stand back up and she goes back to playing with the zebra stuffed animal he got her and watches tv. He follows me into the dining room and still can keep an eye on Ro. We look into eachothers eyes and he hands me flowers. I look back into his eyes and I cry and hug him. Chris: Beyoncé I'm so sorry. Bey: I'm sorry Christopher. We hug for a while and I felt safe in his arms again but know we need to elaborate. I put the flowers in a vase and put them on the dining room table and we sit across from eachother. Bey: may I ask where you went last night? Chris: my moms house. She made me realize a lot. And when I said I hated you, of course I didn't mean it. I think we winded eachother up and we were just tryna hurt eachother. Bey: thank you Chris. I didn't mean to bring up your old shit. Sometimes it just sits on the mind and it comes out ugly. But when it comes down to us and the love we have for each other. Does it feel the same to you as it did in the beginning? Chris: *sighs and swallows hard and sweating* no. It dosent. Do you feel- Bey: I do feel the same. We've been hurting eachother so much lately and we already went through therapy but we only get one life. Chris: I feel the same way and I can't believe it's gonna come down to this. Bey: *tears* divorce.
