Jennifer Jareau's Daughter

Chapter 27

Max's POV:

I'm in my bedroom laying down as I hear l Miles and Will talking. I hear Miles knock on the door to my bedroom I quickly put on my headphones making him think that I'm listening to music as I watch him enter the room. I watch him nervously walk over to me and sit on the bed taking my hand.

"Hey Maxie why don't you come out and talk to Will? You know try to clear the air between you two?" Miles asks me making me sigh as I shake my head

"Why should I waste my breath talking to him? He has never done anything to benefit me. He done nothing for me. He is not my biological father." I say angrily as Miles tries to calm me down

I watch as Miles takes a deep breath rubbing his face I can see that he is thinking as he rubs my back. I know Miles just wants what best for me at the end of the day. I know the amount of nights he stayed with me at the orphanage to protect me from the abuse and held me as I cried about JJ to him. Once I look up to see his face I see how concerned he is I take my headphones off. I turn to look at him as I see him stop and process on what to say next. I can practically see the words swirling around in his head.

"I know you don't want or really need to talk to him. But I think you should not to benefit him but to help you and your brother heal from the trauma and anger you both have against him from that night. I ain't saying you guys should forgive him. Shit I don't think I could even forgive him if I was in yours or Henry's position. I'm just saying maybe you guys should hear him out. It might make everyone feel better in the end. Or at least make you understand him a little bit more. Get to know why he chose to get wasted." Miles says as I close my eyes processing what he just said really taking in everything her just told me

"Please just promise me you will at least think about it okay? You don't have to talk to him about anything today. Fuck you do not even have to talk to him about it in a month from now. I do have to tell you something I may have told Will a tiny white lie just a little bit to get him to leave you alone cause I know you wanted him too. I told him that we need to get lunch before you have to do your homework again. I explained to him you haven't finished all the assignments you needed to do before class tomorrow. He actually just left to go get Henry. Which is why I came I am here to let you know that he is gone." Miles explains to me as I nod gratefully

"I just ordered your favorite McDonald's from that place we always go to that is two blocks away from here. I'm gonna go and pick it up. I know you probably wanna relax so I'll get it myself. If there is anything you want me to pick up just message me. I am hoping by the time we finish eating the food Sarah should be done all her chores. Then we can go pick up Sarah and hang out for a bit before you have to go home to Will and JJ. I'll be right back." Miles says kissing my cheek as I put on my best fakest smile in his direction

"Okay I really love that plan. I'm excited for us to all hang out. We're gonna have fun. It'll be the thing we all need to help us all destress. I love you." I say as I watch Miles smile brightly as his eyes twinkle making me feel bad for faking this happiness in front of him

"I love you too so much Max more than you will ever realize." Miles says hugging me tightly before he leaves

Once I know that Miles has left I put my headphone back on. I look at my iPod. I put on "Adam's song" by Blink 182. I don't know if I'm ready to acknowledge what Will has to say. In all honestly I don't know if I'll ever be ready. How come he didn't try and be a father to me? Was he that ashamed of me because I ain't his DNA? He literally hasn't told anyone in his family that I'm living here. Why is he keeping me as a dirty little secret? Was I that hard to love? I thought he was too busy raising Henry to be a dad or to even care or love me. Does he even actually love me? I can't help as extreme amounts of anger starts to rise in me. He never even wanted me in the first place I realize. I am lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the door to my bedroom has opened. I look up to realize Miles is back as he is holding the bags of McDonald's food. I quickly get out of the bed not even looking at Miles or acknowledging him as I enter the bathroom. I lock the door after slamming it shut making sure he can't come inside. I open the mirror cabinet grabbing my trusty blade the one thing to give me a sense of release from the pain in my heart and the evil thoughts that are consuming my head and my brain. I roll up my sleeve seeing all my old cuts and scars. Before I can do anything Miles starts to bang loudly on the door before I hear him grab something out of the kitchen and as he unlocks the door before opening it wide. I freeze. Oh fuck Miles just learned about my deepest darkest secret. I never wanted him to learn about this. The only people who even know about it are Sarah and Henry. I can't help but close my eyes. Is Miles gonna tell JJ and Will? What is gonna happen between Miles and I now? How will JJ and Will react if Miles tells them?