TAKE IT AS A COMPLIMENT - lando norris

35 - rollarcoaster of emotions

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LANDO NORRIS
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I went in there crying. I went in there to tell her I love her and I would never want anything bad to happen to her. I went in there to tell her I would never lose her.

I've never been more wrong.

I left without her.

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On the phone, Paul explains in detail about the consequences of my actions, I hear none of it. After Caroline's name is spoken, I check out.

I hang up as soon as I can, putting my headphones on and blasting the music Caroline got me into while Oscar and Logan play chess across the private plane.

I didn't mean what I said.

"Maybe I want normal."

I did mean it.

I hate myself for meaning it. I want normal but I want to be normal with her. I fucking love her and i'm the reason why we're not together now.

I love her success and maybe in another life i'm okay with her being my rival. Maybe even in this one.

I'm so confused and my feelings are all messed up.

Caroline's most may as well have stabbed me in the heart. "Were" we "WERE" dating. Because of me, now we're not.

I want to know who leaked that photo, I know it was sent in a group chat between Cara, Johnny, Caroline, Logan, and I. But it wasn't any of them.

I'm pushed out of my thoughts, literally. Logan falls into me, scrambling to stand back up after his quick trip to the floor.

"Yo." Oscar sits across from me, just the three of us today. "You alright?"

"Sure." I shrug, watching Logan lay down on three seats and attempting to fall asleep.

"Lan." I roll my eyes at the seriousness of his tone, "You ever gonna talk about it?"

"It's been three days, give me a break." I slump in my seat. Three days of hell. It's hard for me but I can't stop thinking about how horrible this week has been for Caroline.

She crashed - I suggested a break - our relationship got leaked - people are mean - and she has to go win a championship with a broken rib.

"Still..."

"I know you're both of our friends, Osc." I pull my headphones off, "But you don't have to side with both of us."

"But I do! You two are so ominous that I don't even know either of yours!"

I roll my eyes, of course my mysterious girlfriend won't tell him. Ex girlfriend? Fuck I don't even know.

"All you need to know is that it's been a long time coming."

Oscar raises a brow, "You two were in love."

"So now you want us together?"

He sighs, "I'm sorry I blew up on you. But I told you something like this would happen! I want you both to be happy and clearly this is fucking everything up."

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I watched 'Rio' on the rest of the plane ride. We were supposed to watch it together.

When did I get so sappy??

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My parents surprised me in Monaco, wanting to gush over my 'heroic' acts. I fake a smile as we sit down for dinner.