Love & Betrayal

~ Possessive

Aap ke prashnon ka koi uttar nahi hai mere paas panchali. Uchit rahega ki aap kuch bhi na puche aur mujhe apna karya karne de."

He told without showing any emotion but the softness and pain filled in his voice didn't go unseen by her. She could always see his hidden emotions and at that time she had the gut feeling that he was hiding something from her. First him leaving her then his disappearance, after years of separation he brought her back in his life and now this portrait. If he had loved her then why did he leave her like that? And if he never loved her then why this portrait?

"Aapko uttar dena hoga! Mere saath jo vishwaasghaat kiya tha aapne usska uttar dena hoga aapko. Aapke karan mujhse mera sab kuch chinn gaya. Mera maan-sanmaan, mera ghar, mere pitashree. Sab kuch! Kyu mere saath chal kiya aapne? Kyu meri bhawnao ke saath khel khela? Aapne toh mujhse kabhi prem nhi kiya fir kyu mera chitra aapke paas hai? Boliye aarya!"

She shook him angrily while loudly asking those questions which were killing her peace. Those questions hadn't let her live peacefully.

Meanwhile yudhishthir was looking away from her. Her every question was piercing into his heart like a sharp arrow. He wanted to clear all the misunderstandings between them but he was helpless. The tears in her eyes which were reflecting both pain and anger were making him weak. With trembling hands he joined them before her and with lot of struggles said.
"Apne saare dushkarmon ke liye tum mujhe jo bhi dand dogi mujhe vo sab svikarya hai prantu inn prashnon ka uttar nhi de paunga main. Main prayshchit karne ke liya tayar hoon, panchali"

Draupadi was now more sure that he was definitely hiding something from her. She would never have interfered but it was related to her, what's the thing that made him betray her? Was he really in love with her? Was that his helplessness which separated them?
'No drau, don't let your heart decide. He has once trapped you in love, maybe again he is playing with your emotions.'
She thought in her mind and pushed him back.

"You can not trap me into your fake words dharmraj! I just want answers of my questions. The betrayal you had given me wasn't easy. Everyday and night I had burnt myself alone in pain. I had suffered from every pain alone. I gave birth to your child on my own, going against this society. People used to look at me with disgust but i bore all that for the sake of your son, dharmraj!" She said in a mocking tone and that hitted him. Draupadi was using harsh words so that somewhere his silence break and he would spill out the truth but yudhishthir was still silent, his patience was much more higher that she had ever thought. It made her pissed off.

"Don't speak anything! Your silence has told me that you have brought me here just for your son and i can't live a life like this. Instead of this I would live alone with my son. My life was better before, I was happy with my family. There wasn't luxury but atleast we had a happy life. I would call bharata karan and leave with him." She told harshly which shocked him. Saying so she wiped her tears and was going but he held her wrist. Yudhishthir tightly gripped on her hands and came closer to her. He caged her in his arms, her back wad stuck on his chest as they were so close to each other. He leaned closer to her nape and kept his head there. His warm breathe were falling on her bare skin making her weak already.

"I won't let you go, panchali! I will accept all the punishments but not a separation. Only death can seperate me from you." He firmly told making his grip more tighter. Draupadi was struggling in his hold as she was trying her best to get out but here he was stronger. She did the failed attempts while he strongly opposed her. His other hand was covering her bare stomach and one was holding her wrist and pinned on the back. He knew that it wasn't a proper behavior but at that point he couldn't take the chance. He knew her anger, if she had decided then she can do it and that scared him.

"Leave me! I said leave me!"

"I will but only after you promise me to not go anywhere unless I tell you." He demanded but she was stubborn enough to not follow his order. She straight forwarded a NO.

"I will never take you orders. And by doing this you are showing me how low you can stoop. If I had ever known with these colours of your then I would have never loved you, I would have thought thousands time before falling for you. You and duryodhan doesn't differ anyways. He also wanted to marry me forcefully and you are the same as him." She told once more time with anger coated harsh words not knowing how much deep scars it was leaving on his heart. Yudhishthir swallowed her every word as he respected her anger and feelings. "Call me devil but i won't let you go."

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Yudhishthir was marching in his private chamber, it was his own and none was allowed to enter in kings chamber without permission. He was remembering everything, the argument he had with panchali sometime ago and the things she said to him. He was feeling angry on himself for behaving like an animal with her. How could he make her suffer? He held her so tightly that she had the marks on her wrist now. The very moment it came before his eyes he angrily punched on the wall with bare hands. He kept punching untill blood began oozing out of his knuckles. A time later he rested his head on the wall, panting heavily while tears coming out of his eyes.

"How I become like this? I messed up everything. Noone is happy. Panchali, maa, prativindya. No one is happy here. And everything is happening because of me. I can't bear this anymore, it's hurting day by day." He said as everything was dark around. He was feeling depressed with the situations that has aroused. What should he do? How will they come out of this?

He was just drowning into the guilt more and more. First she suffered because of him and now when should get every happiness again he was making her go through the pain.

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