Love & Betrayal

~ Bursting of anger

"Maata, let's tell everyone. Bhrata karan will surely forgive you, he will return back to you. And arya will be more happy, finally his wish of having an elder brother will be completed."

"No draupadi, I can't! They will start hating me, what will they think about my character? They will surely hate me. And karan is happy with his radha maa. He will never come to me, infact he will hate me after knowing the truth and will never come back to me." She called out her fear and draupadi again tried to console her. "Promise me that you will not tell anyone about this not even yudhishthir."

In between their own talks they didn't notice his presence. He entered inside taking small steps, anger and betrayal both was evident in his tears.

"Putra!"

"Itna bada rahasya maata. Aapne apni hi santaan ka tyaag kardiya? Itna kathor hriday kaise ho sakta hai aapka, bhrata karan ke hriday ko kitni pida hogi aapka satya jaane ke baad. Aapne humse humare jyesth ke baare mein chipaya. Kyu maata. Aur abhi bhi aap issko rahasya rakhna chahti hai." He angrily asked with a dangerously calm voice. Kunti was more scared now, she knew his anger. He never gets angry but once getting it's hard to calm him.

"Yudhishthir__"

"Kab baatane wali thi aap hume humare jyesth ke baare mein? Jab arjun apne baano se unka vadh kar deta tab ya fir jab vo apne baano se arjun ka vadh kar dete tab? Aapke hriday mein tab bhi pida nahi hui jab aapne apne dono putron ko aapas mein dvandh karte dekha? Tab bhi nahi jab aapke putra ek dusre se ghrina karte the, chubhan bhare shabd bolkr unka apmaan karte the tab? Kyu maata? Guru dron, pitamaha, mere bhai, kaurav sab logon ne unka upmaan kiya, kshatriya hokar bhi suttputra hone ka upmaan sehena pada. Aur main? Main unka haqq chinn kr raja bann gaya? Yeh singhaasan unka hai, Maine apne hi bhai ka haq chinn liya. Kaisa paap kiya hai aapne maata! Uttar dijiye!"

Yudhishthir angrily growled while punching the vase with force that it broke into pieces scaring both the ladies. Draupadi was scared, she never gets but his anger was dangerous. She never had seen this side of him, because he was always of calm, sincere, forgiving nature, he hardly gets angry but it never stays for long but this was something different.
She was in turmoil on whom to handle, kunti was sobbing so hard and yudhishthir was too much angry. Both needed her attention and she can't decide whom. Still she chose kunti and held her by shoulders.

"What are you doing arya? She didn't do anything on purpose. It was a mistake, she was a child then......"

"That's not the point draupadi. Why didn't she stopped her other sons when they were insulting bharata karn? Why was she silent when pitamaha discarded him from participating in kala pradarshan. I accept, she was a child and did the mistake but she had chance to tell us. Why didn't she?" He angrily asked. Draupadi was a little taken back as he never had taken her name and always called her by the other, it was him who first started calling her 'panchali'. It will be understatement if she said she wasn't hurt. She felt sad to hear this tone of him. But yudhishthir didn't realise it, he wasn't at sense.

"Putra, forgive me! I was scared. I thought you all will live me and hate me..."

"Main aapko kshama nahi kar sakta maata. Aapne paap kiya hai aur isski koi kshama nahi hai." He told and with big steps left from there. Draupadi and kunti tried to stop him but he didn't. "Putri, please go behind him. He is very angry, you can only calm him now. Please go near him. He's hurt that's why it's coming out as anger." Draupadi wasn't willing to leave but she forced and so she ran behind him.

..............

She entered the room to see everything shattered and the room was in miserable condition. It was more than she had expected and now she had to do more efforts. Yudhishthir never shatters easily but now he had then someone has to collect him. Draupadi looked everywhere to find a little glimpse of him before the window and he was sitting on ground behind the sofa.

She felt an ache but then asided it knowing he needs her more. She went near him and saw his silhouette, he was sitting with a hand covering his head and eyes closed.

"I can't think anything in this present situation panchali please don't force me to understand." He spoke out and she knew it. She came near him and sat beside there keeping her palm on his shoulder. "You should be angry. You have whole right to become angry on maata, I haven't come here to make you understand. I came here because I don't want you to cry alone. Arya, we are together in this. You share your happiness then you should also share your grief too, if you can smile near me then you can also cry near me. Don't bottle up your emotions and let them hurt you."  She soothingly said caressed his shoulder with her soft hand. This gesture of hers brought out all his emotions, he tried to stop them but it was out of control now.

Giving up to the emotions he immediately hide his face on her lap and started crying. His silent cries were making her heart bleed. She wanted him to stop as it was hurting her to see him like this but then he has to let go of his pain then only she can make him understand.
After a leap of half hour finally he was normal. He stayed in the same position, laying on the floor keeping his head in her lap and holding on her drape with a strong grip. Draupadi smiled and caressed his hair. She massaged his head and he was now feeling relief. She noticed that he needed some more time to digest everything so she waited and said nothing.

"Maa! Pitashee!" Prativindya called from the entrance. He was looking at the room with shock and little scared. Yudhishthir got up and sharing a look to his wife went near his son. Prativindya hurriedly hugged his father. He took him on the bed and they both laid there. Draupadi came and sat beside prativindya. He was caressing yudhishthir's cheek earning a smile from him, he just closed his eyes and held both of them near him.

"Vindya, let your pita sleep and you come with me." Draupadi finally said once yudhishthir had slept. Prativindya sat on his mother's lap and kissed on her cheek.

"Maa, don't go!"

"Ok." She said kissing his head. Her eyes shifted on yudhishthir and again the scene freshened in her mind. She kept her hand on his head which he immediately held and slept hugging it forming a smile on her face.

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