Jake's eyes widened at Johnnie's response. A dusting of pink rises to his face as he looks down at their hands.
They fit perfectly just like a puzzle.
Johnnie gave a reassuring squeeze as he says, "Talk to me, I don't want you to feel like a mess or lost anymore."
Jake pulled his hands back. He scooted away from Johnnie. Tucking up his knees as he rests his chin on them.
"I feel lost. Like I'm trapped in a maze of emotion, you know?" Jake began. "I just been feeling overstimulated with my thoughts and feelings. Especially towards you."
Johnnie blushes faintly at that. "Feelings..? What do you mean?" He asked softly, shifting as he sits next to Jake. He sets a hand on Jake's knee.
Jake swore his stomach did flips as he felt butterflies hit him like bricks. He sighed. Turning his body to the side, so his back tattoo faced Johnnie for a brief moment as he grabbed the can of Diet Coke.
He sits back and takes a few drinks before he sets it back. "I don't know," Jake replied.
Johnnie hums softly. "Well, you need to open up to me more if you want me to help you." He comforted.
Jake nods, "I know." As his head slumped onto Johnnie's shoulder. Johnnie laid his head on top of Jake's head, wrapping an arm around the shirtless man.
"C'mon, talk to me more, Sweetheart." Johnnie says, Jake felt a rush of warmth rise to his face when he heard the nickname.
He adores it.
"I feel lost and confused. Like I'm in a maze and I feel like I'm dying. I keep thinking about our friendship... Thinking closer at it, I've been fixated on it for a long time. You're constantly in my mind Johnnie, and I don't know why. Since I kissed you that one time at Tara's party... Something, sparked and I don't know what it is. I know the party was a year ago.. but this feeling hasn't changed. It hasn't gone away." Jake vented as he lifts his head.
Jake looked at Johnnie with tears glistening in his eyes. "What's wrong with me?"
Johnnie's heart broke at the sight of Jake's tears. "Nothing is wrong with you. You're just feeling lost right now. But I'll guide you out of that maze, and help you be found to the exit. Alright sweetheart?"
Jake's eyes didn't let the tears slip out as he says, "Alright." As he blinks them away.
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Fanfiction[ L O S T ] Jake is lost in a train ride of emotions. He feels as if he's in a maze - corrupted by his negative thoughts and not full of understanding of them. Yet a certain emo boy, Johnnie Guilbert - helps him through this emotional time and their...
