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Chapter 57 | Dynamite versus Diamond

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As I wipe the glass the next day, the rag in my hand trembling slightly, my mind is consumed with the dread of what I have to do. What I am basically forced to do.

How am I going to tell Alek? How can I make him understand that we can't spend time together anymore? Not because I want to distance myself, but because I have to? The thought of hurting him, of pushing him away when he's been nothing but kind, makes my chest tighten with sorrow.

Although he probably won't make a fuss about it, I mean, he did say that he likes hanging out with me, but it's not like we know eachother for long. He probably won't mind and be like 'okay, bye'.

I mind though...

But I know I have no choice. Demetrios's threat is all too real, and the last thing I want is for Alek to be caught in the crossfire. I can't let Dimitri hurt him. I just can't. He doesn't deserve to suffer because of me.

Lost in my thoughts, I almost miss them, almost don't take notice of them-

Demetrios and Diamond are strolling together in the garden just outside the window I'm cleaning. My hand freezes mid-swipe, my breath catching in my throat.

'She's just a whore' my fucking ass...

There they are, walking side by side, Diamond's red hair catching the sunlight as she tilts her head back and laughs at something he says. Demetrios, with that confident, easy stride, his hand resting on her lower back. As much as I don't want to admit it, they look like the perfect couple - beautiful, powerful, untouchable. And it cuts me deep, like a knife twisted in my heart.

'I'm a busy man, I don't have time to sit in the garden and watch butterflies and shit' well, looks like he does... just not with me.

The ache in my chest spreads, making it hard to breathe. How is it fair? How is any of this fair? He parades her around like she's some sort of prize, while I'm supposed to disappear into the shadows, cutting off the only person who's making me feel good for the past days.

I'm supposed to stay away from Alek, to give up whatever sliver of happiness I might have found, while he does whatever he wants, with whoever he wants. The injustice of it all is suffocating, like a weight pressing down on my chest until I feel like I might shatter under the pressure.

What does he want from me? What does he expect?

The confusion, the hurt, the anger... they all swirl together inside me, a chaotic storm that I can't control. He makes demands, sets rules that only apply to me, but he's free to do as he pleases. I can't figure him out, can't understand why he's so hell-bent on keeping me in his orbit while he plays these games with other women.

I hate him for that. I hate that people's feelings mean nothing to him, that he never thinks of somebody else's emotions... that it's all always just a sick game for him.

The worst part is that I still feel something for him, buried beneath all the anger and fear. I hate it, hate that he still has this power over me, hate that a part of me is still tied to him, even after everything. But every time I see him with Diamond, it's like a reminder that I'm just another pawn in his twisted game. He doesn't care about me, not really. I'm just something to control, something to own.

As I stand there, staring out the window at them, the rag clenched tightly in my hand, I feel the emptiness inside me growing. It's like a void that keeps expanding, swallowing up everything good, leaving me hollow and numb. I don't know how much more of this I can take, this constant push and pull, this game where I don't even know the rules. I don't know what he wants from me, and it's driving me mad. All I know is that whatever this is, it's tearing me apart and he doesn't seem to care at all.