MC Devil Dogs #3 Why Am I Not Loveable?

The Hunt Is On

Razor

     We all have checked places the two scumbags are associated with.  It's as if they have completely vanished.  Cherise is a shell of herself.  I have tried to be there for her but she has shut me out.  Ruby has been coming by to check on her.  She seems to talk to Ruby but no one else.  I just want to go and hold her.  I wish I could make her feel safe.  I head into the kitchen to make myself a sandwich before I lay down.  I finish eating and decide to make a sandwich for Cherise she hasn't come down today.  Everyone misses her even though she is a sweet butt she has made this place feel like home for most of the boys.  I grab a bag of chips and a coke to go along with it.  I knock on her door and as she opens it I can see she has been crying more.  I offer her the sandwich but she shakes her head no.  "Cherise baby I know you are sad and scared but you have to take care of yourself so that when we get Penny and Brick back you are able to be there for them."  I see her take the sandwich and eat a couple of bites.  I decide to sit beside her while she tries to eat. 

Cherise

     I hear a knock on the door.  I open it to see Razor standing there with a sandwich.   I stood there looking at him and all I wanted him to do was hug me for just a minute.  I just need to forget everything for atleast five minutes.  He convinces me to eat some of the sandwich.  I know he is right but it's hard to eat right now.  Razor sits beside me.  I wish I was born in another life.  I wish I lived in a house with someone like Razor as my husband with children running around.  I would never allow anyone to hurt my kids but I know I will never have that.  My father made sure I would always be a whore.  "He is raping her by now Razor.  He is a sick and a vicious man" I tell him.  He squeezes my hand and says that we will find her.  He stands and tells me to try to rest as he leaves.

     Little bit later on there is another knock on my door.  I am thinking Razor came back up.  I open my door to see Jackie standing there smiling.  I am not in the mood to deal with her.  I ask "What do you want Jackie?"  She laughs as she says "For you to go away for good.  I can't stand how all the boys especially Prez treats you like you are important."  I shake my head at her and tell her "Get out!"  I go to shut the door but she grabs it.  She ask "But don't you want to save Penny from dear old dad?"  I take a moment then ask "What the actual fuck do you mean Jackie?"  She then tells me to follow her and don't say a word until we are away from the club if I want to save Penny.  I have no choice because I have to save Penny.  I make the decision to follow her.  Stupid decision I know but no one else can get hurt because of me. 

Razor

     I hated to leave Cherise but I have to get some sleep so I can go out again tomorrow to search.  As Cherise said that about her father I could see the pain in her eyes.  I will never understand how any parent could do that to their child.  My mother was cold and verbally abusive to Veronica but not like Cherise's parents.  I drift off to sleep with Cherise on my mind.  I hear my alarm going off and I feel like I just shut my eyes.  I get dressed so I can hopefully find Penny and Brick today.  As soon as I got downstairs the guys are ready to go.  Prez tells us all to leave no stone unturned.  I jump on my bike and say a little prayer.  We all seperate and head out to try to find them.

     Hours later we all make it back without a trace of Penny or Brick.  Prez calls us to church.  We all give our report and no one found any leads.  Prez tells us all to eat, rest and be ready to go again tomorrow.  He then ask me to go get Cherise so he can ask her some more questions.  He says "Maybe she forgot something that will give us a clue."  I head up to knock on her door but she doesn't answer.  I open the door but she is not inside.  I head down ask around but no one has seen her.  Prez tells everyone to report down to the common area.  He then ask when was the last time anyone saw Cherise and it was me last night.  Someone says that Jackie also missing.  I knew then this is bad.