MEAN - Tom kaulitz

Lost for words

I woke up to my alarm it's 5 in the morning, it's the trip to France and I have to go because my mum has already paid. It's been Almost a month of being alone, just me hanging with Dawn as she was always on about Lucas while my mind has been blank. Every time I would walk past Tom, bill or Cherry my heart would drop with sadness knowing there might be a chance I will never speak a word to them because at this point I don't know what to say. I know I'm a bad person for what I did to Tom because he is obviously the one in the right. I just couldn't do it any more I was lost for words.

I brush my teeth, hair and do my skin care
I change into shorts and a hoodie putting my head phones on as I take my suit case that has been ready since last week. The world seems so grey to me that I'm already getting so used to it.

"Come on" my mum takes my suit case for me as I take a seat in the car, the car ride was very calm it was raining and it was still dark outside. The whole class was meeting in the air port and I don't know what I will be doing in France without any one. Dawn is gonna be with me of course but it's still not the same without bill, Cherry and Tom.

"Take care of your self okay? Call me every morning and night" my mum scolds me playfully. "Yes I will don't worry" I nod smiling at bit before walking out of the car with my suit case to the air port.

I walk in seeing everyone, i watch as bill and Cherry talk excited about the trip, they are so cute when they are like this and I couldn't help but smile at them. I then turn and take a seat falling asleep slowly waiting for our plane to be called out.

I woke up to someone taking a seat next to me I turn to see Tom. My heart dropping I felt like throwing up at how heavy my heart felt.

"Hi" he says, it's the first word he has said to me in a decade, "hi" I say back. "Bill told me everything" he sighs. "Oh" I look down.

The plane was announced which interrupted our convo, I take my stuff and start to walk away as I felt his eyes on me. It's not like it's gonna change anything? He wouldn't wanna come back to me. Bill doesn't know about the Norman thing, not even Cherry. They just know I was almost ran over.

I take my seat, put my headphones on and look out of the window, as everyone one was taking the seats the teachers put them in, I felt someone take one next to me I turn to see Tom.

"They put me next to you" tom says awkwardly which caused me to chuckle.

"So how you been" I cough with my sore throat, "how do you think I have been? I miss you baby" he says sweetly causing me to almost cry.

"Tom I miss you too" I felt a tear fell down my cheek

"Come back to me baby" he wipes my tear, "I can't Tom I don't deserve you" I take a breath.

"I will wait for you" he kisses my cheek, I needed to feel him so I hugged him, he held me tightly in his arms as I fell asleep.

Time skip

"Wake up" I heard Tom, I open my to seeing everyone exiting the airplane, I was sad that I couldn't stay in his arms but nothing last forever right?

Time skip

I got my keys to my hotel room,  I make my way and pack my stuff. The room was nice especially the shower. As I was getting ready to go to the pool with the rest of the class I got a text. A random number sent me some video? I look at it and my heart dropped. It was cherry and a sex tape of her fucking a guy from our class. I have missed out on a lot because they probably have a thing going on. But who sent me this?!

I can't do this anymore I have to show her this, I'm not even mad anymore I miss them but I'm also mad at who is trying to ruin her life.

The person then sent me a text saying "I will ruin her life if you go back to Tom" said the text.

Fuck.

I ran out in my dress calling Cherry on my phone

Cherry Pov

"Do you think he will like this?" I look at bill wearing my dress, "he will love it" he smiles. I wish bloom was here to give me advice about boys. While she has been gone I have a thing with a class mate called William.  It's been really lonely without her but we respect her choice. Until I got a call from her.

Me and bill was both confused at why she was calling?

"Hello?" I pickup

"What room are you in?" She says out of breath desperately. "14 why?" I question but she just switched it off.  We heard a knock on the door bill opens it and there she is running to me hugging me.

Are we getting our bestie back?