TDASR; Book 3 (Total Drama All-stars: Retreat)

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"I know you said you're going to wash your hands of this show," Warner starts. "But what are you going to do about Gwen? There's no way she can get away with this."

He's right. What am I going to do? Is she going to avoid me forever? What the h3ll am I going to say if she calls me, or if we run into each other? And once the season winner is announced, I'm going to be hounded by the paparazzi again. She's going to know I know eventually. We can't just act like nothing happened. Trust me, I've tried.

"I don't know," I admit honestly.

"I think you should confront her. You should call her right now and make her admit to everything," Warner says strongly.

"I can't, not right now."

"But why?" He whines.

"Because I'm not in the right headspace, Warner," I answer frustratingly. "I just had to watch my friend stab me in the back and kiss the guy she knew I liked a lot. She knew what he put me through. He lead me on. He was trying to pick between me and Courtney almost the entire time and lied about it. And to make matters worse, it was aired in front of the entire world! Watching Gwen embarrass herself on this show makes me sad because I remember all the great times we had together... But despite being utterly heartbroken, I'm still furious. Trent was right and she made him look insane! And even so, I still took her side and she ruined my friendship with him so she wouldn't look like a piece of sh1t. I just need two seconds to gather my thoughts and finish this stupid show, then I'll deal with Gwen."

"I'm sorry, love," he says genuinely. "Maybe I was just being impulsive. It's just hard looking at all of this. Them, all acting like what Gwen did to Courtney wasn't the exact same thing Courtney did to you, it's infuriating!"

"I get it," I say quietly. "Ugh, where's a rage room when you need one?"

I went on "Total Drama Island" to win the money, to make a name for myself, BUT I also went to make friends and memories as well, because I had just uprooted my entire life and moved to a different country. It was the last summer before I started my life, high school was over, so when Warner approached me about this show, I eventually thought, "Maybe this'll show me why my mom loves this place so much." I made some really good memories in the beginning, I made some awesome friends- Bridgette, Leshawna, Trent, DJ... But I also had some terrible memories, and people who I thought were my friends, were actually enemies in disguise. All on live TV, It's all so embarrassing! I'm angry at Gwen too, but I need to gather myself before I do something I regret.

"As much sh1t as they put us through, at least those slimey producers couldn't split us up. The two amigas cheetahs," I say to Warner, trying to make light of the situation. "I mean, trying to villainize you and my father was so low!"

"Me and Mathias made a mistake... But I'm really thankful for you giving us another chance. If it weren't for you, I'd still be working at that crusty mall, living with my witch of a mother, and selling feet pics on the side to make some extra income."

"And if it weren't for you, I'd be miserable studying at some lame college I didn't want to go to in the first place, probably selling feet pics, too."

The two of us look at each other and start laughing hysterically. We definitely didn't lie. We need each other, and I'm glad I gave friendship another try.

...

"Last time on Total Drama World Tour... Our newlywed couples fell hard for Niagara Falls. With the teams dissolved, alliances were tested. A few tempers, too. Sierra, however, found that the honeymoon challenge was the perfect way to propose to Cody, but fake marrying our new arrival Blaineley didn't do Owen much good. Our favorite big buddy was sent home, thanks to Alejandro's sneaky work behind the scenes. Who will win? Who will lose? Who will be-" Chris continues but cuts himself off as he spots Blaineley in his hot tub. "In my hot tub?! The tub is for hosts only."