Before you

22.

Lando didn't say much during our ride back, but I understood that. He was probably tired.

We arrived at the hotel, he dropped his stuff down and walked to the bathroom without saying another word.

I could hear him turn the shower on.

He was great at hiding his feelings, awesome at bringing himself down.

Was he beating himself up because he finished fourth? That would actually be ridiculous.

I walked in the bathroom, he was already standing in the shower, he one hand against the wall and turned his head to me as I walked in.

This was probably weird for some people, but not for us. Seeing each other naked is when we felt most comfortable.

"You wanna join me?" He asked with a smirk.

"Tempting, but I actually want to know what's going on?"

"What do you mean? I am showering, nothing else is going on"

I rolled my eyes. Maybe I had to do this the old school way. Our way.

The way we felt most comfortable around each other.

I unzipped my pants, took them off and took my shirt off.

Lando smiled a little. "I see you are joining me"

"I am" I smirked as I took all of my clothes off. He took a step back allowing me to join him in the shower.

And fuck, I had to admit that it was pretty hot, standing in front of him, water dripping down our bodies.

Even though the water was pretty cold, guess he liked cold showers, it was pretty hot between us.

He pushed my wet hair back, put his hand on my cheek. "I don't want to break up"

"We are not even dating for real Lando, you do realize that, right?"

"Yes I do, but I still like having you around" he said. Even though I was completely naked, his eyes stayed on mine.

Didn't glance down my body, not once.

"So we are just gonna keep pretending as if we are dating?"

He shrugged, let his fingers brush down my back. "Or we can actually try this thing?"

"Try dating?" I frowned.

"Like, go on dates together, get to know each other better" he explained.

I sighed a little. "I obviously do like you, but I can't do this right now" I put my hand on his chest. "I have too many things going on right now"

He nodded. "I understand"

"But Lando, I don't want you to think it's about you, I promise it's all about me or about my family at least"

He nodded again, moved his hand up to my cheek again and rubbed his thumb against it.

"If you ever have the opportunity to fall in love again, please fall in love with me"

And my heart, oh my fucking heart skipped several beats. The butterflies in my stomach were definitely alive and kicking.

He pressed his naked body against mine, his lips against mine. My back was pressed against the wall.

One of his hands was on my cheek, while the other one was on the wall.

And we kissed, we kissed like we never kissed before. Not sloppy and messy, but pretty sweet and passionately.

It was as if we were saying goodbye, which ultimately we were.

After our shower together, we put on some comfortable clothes and laid down together in bed.

We didn't have sex. Which was weird because laying down on the bed always meant we were gonna have sex.

Not now, not tonight.

He opened his arms, pulled me closer and kissed my forehead and brushed his fingers against my back.

And that's how we fell asleep. Just like that.

I never slept better.