Kata² Yang Hilang Di Langit

all I ever wanted was a friend. haha.

When I'm at lowest,
I don't find that anyone is willing to hear my rant,
I grew up without talking deep stuff to others.

And one day,
I met him.
And he's willing to hear my rant for a few year. (Without judging and belittle)
He was the comfort that I seek for everytime.
I never thought that I would be so attach to him.
Until I lose him.

Word is precious more than anything,
It can cure, be a poison or even worse, make someone wants to die.
I was dependant. Almost every day,
I can't live without him,
I seek him every second, every time,
And I don't know at that time,
Due to my low self-esteem and my low trust on myself,
It was unbearable for him,
He felt like drowning with my words,
He felt helpless, he was thinking that his presence might be the one that causes me like this,
But it was all not his fault,
It was all my fault,
I was the one too dependant on him.
I don't give him a space that should be,
He was in my small circle and drown with my emotions,
And he don't know how to get out and take a breath, he was stuck in there,
So I let him out,
I let go of him.
For his own good.

Afterall, I don't have anyone.
All I ever wanted was, a friend.