Guilt is such a funny thing, why would you feel guilty about someone dying? Well, if you killed them and your human, you'd feel guilty, but she didn't kill them, so why does she feel guilty?
She never wanted Herschel to kick them out. It was her group. They kept her alive. helped her when jasper died even helped her when Annie died even though no one liked her. She even at one point liked Shane but once he opened that barn, she just couldn't bring herself to care about him. Maybe this was for the better, maybe jj and Sophia were together... In heaven. That was a nice thought.
"ya not gonna burn them, are ya?" Lilith watched as Andrea put a blanket over Sophia's body. "them? " "JJ"
The older girl made an oh sound. "Do you know him?" Lilith nodded "i know them all" Andrea searched Lilith's face for any kind of sadness or grief, but none showed, her face was completely and utterly blank. "We won't burn anyone you know" she nodded and turned around without a word leaving Andrea watching her walk off.
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The whole time Maggie helped her get ready for the burial no one spoke a word. Maggie had helped her find her prettiest dress and had curled her hair. Lilith thought it was stupid but for the first time she allowed Maggie to tamper with her and dress her like a doll.
No one spoke but it was nice. Some people shed a tear or two, but Lilith didn't, she just silently watched as they buried the bodies. The first was Natalie Hershel's wife and Beth and Maggie's mom. The second was Shawn Natalie's son and Hershel's stepson. Then it was Sophia, then it was jj and so on. Lilith was the last one to stay. After everyone had walked off. Rick, the second last to leave, kissed the side of Lilith's head. But Lilith stayed standing. She stared at the graves where there were no headstones. Every grave had headstones. This wasn't right. She bent down carefully not to get her dress dirty, and she grabbed a stick and walked over to Natalie's grave, she then as neatly as she could wrote her name. She stopped at every grave Repeating what she once did but with their own name.
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Carl glanced around Lilith's room "I thought it would be cooler "Lilith shrugged sitting on the edge of her bed. It was silent for a moment; the only sounds were hers and his breathing combined with the fan she sometimes used. "I thought i was gonna be the one to shoot her" his words were spoken quietly, and he didn't stop to look at her reaction. "I mean if we found her dead... Which I guess we did. " Finally he turned to look at her. She was staring at the wall; the only emotion he could notice was tiredness. Dark circles had started to form under her eyes. He looked at her for one last moment but realizing she wasn't going to talk, he got up and left.
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Sat next to Beth's bed, Lilith holded the girl's hand. Maggie had come and got the girl earlier saying that Beth had gone into some kind of shock and that they couldn't find Herschel. "Beth?" a soft whisper left Lilith's lips, but no response came.
"Bethy?" still no response came. Beth layed staring motionless at the roof. Rick and Glenn had left earlier to look for him in town. She didn't exactly know why they thought he was in there, but she learned not to question it.
The door creaked and Maggie walked in. "Is she okay?" Lilith spoke quietly. Putting her hand on Lilith's shoulder, Maggie nodded. "She's just... Tried" biting the inside of her cheek Lilith glanced back to Beth. "How about ya get some rest? Maybe go eat something "Lilith went to protest but her stomach growled before she could. Chuckling Maggie sent the girl to the kitchen to make herself a sandwich.
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"Should've been back by now" it was hours later now and everyone had gotten ready for dinner all coming together at the table. "Yea" Lilith was sitting next to Carl as Andrea and Shane spoke. "Might have gotten hold up somewhere will head out in the morning" Patrisha holded out some mash potatoes to him "thank you" Lilith silently ate as she listened to tired to speak. "Carl, I want you to keep your head up, okay? Your father is the toughest son of a bit- ""no cussing in the house" Parthia quickly interrupted, sending Shane a glare. "Lori," Carol called out. "Dinners ready" "she's not in there" "where is she?"
Lori had gone apparently, left to go find Rick and Glenn and Hershel, not surprisingly Shane got straight in a car and left to go find her. And again, not surprisingly Lori was fine, and he brought her back. What surprised her was that Shane blurted out that Loris was pregnant. It didn't take long for Lilith to excuse herself and run off to her bedroom. She loved the group she did, but they were so Exhausting.
the next day she was eating her fruit loops, she was now getting a little nervous, they still hadn't come back, and Beth wasn't getting any better, sure she wasn't physically hurt nothing was wrong with her body she didn't hurt herself accidently or anything.
the sound of a car driving shook her out of her thoughts, and she leaned forward to look out the window. gasping in happiness she ran out of the house not bothering to close the door as Lori and carl followed after her. the car pulled in and Glenn Hershel and rick hoped out, carl and Lori ran to rick, and Maggie ran past her dad to Glenn, but Lilith ran straight into Hershel's arms. " Hershel! " Hershel leaned down to kiss her head before walking inside to care for Beth. a smile for the first time a in a while appeared on her face but it quickly disappeared as she turned around and saw a kid about 16 with a blind fold on and Ethier knocked out or asleep. " Who the fuck is that? " Two answers were replied one from Glenn " that's Randell " and one from rick " language "
" We couldn't just leave behind he would've bled out " Lilith was sat next to Daryl at the table as rick explained why 'Randell' was in their car passed out. " What are we going to do with him" as everyone looked to Andrea Lilith took this chance to slip under the table to escape. "What are ya doin' " Daryl grunted looking down at her. " Shush. I'm escaping" "this ain't an escape room girl" Lilith only shrugged and crawled out of the room sneakily, as Daryl watched her half annoyed half amused. it didn't matter that she was missing the conversation, right? eh she'll just get carl to explain what happen, she wanted to finish her now soggy Fruit loops. she could still hear there arguing from two rooms over, she was really sick of them. Can't a girl just eat breakfast in peace?
authors note
kinda crappy one? idrc Tho cause I'm sick of this chapter. but there's 2 episodes in this chapter so that's good??? I promise ill start doing long chapters soon I just have Hella writer's block
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FanfictionWhen Lilith's life fell apart. she thought she would never have anyone expect for her mother and brother but when they ran into a group near the Atlanta City. She hoped that just maybe it will all be okay... Will it?
