alone again - twd

: please wake up

Lilith watches from a distance as Shane and Dale give water to a tied around a tree Jim. He had some sort of mental break and started to dig graves. She got that it sometimes feels like we're all gonna die but can't he wait till after our deaths to dig a grave?  She turns back to Sophia and Carl and their mums " look lily! I draw you " Sophia gushed pointing to her stick figure in the dirt " cool! I'll draw you " Lilith liked the distraction after everything that went on the night before she's been avoiding her mom. Jasper didn't seem to notice her pain and just carried on helping Dale keep watch out on his rv.

" Sorry if I scared your boy and your little girl. And you Lilith " Jim called out to us Lori shook her head dismissively " You had sunstroke. Nobody's blaming you." She dismissed he concern but he still looked guilty " You're not scared now, are you?" He asks Sophia Lilith and Carl " no sir " Lilith and Sophia turn to look at each other giggling at their same words. "Your mama's right. Sun just cooked my head is all." He told Carl
"Jim, do you know why you were digging? Can you say?" Dale asks him " I had a reason. Don't remember. Something I dreamt last night. Your dad was in it. You were too. You were worried about him. Can't remember the rest. You worried about your dad?  " Jim question Carl. "They're not back yet" Carl mummers. Lori interrupts " We don't need to talk about that " she liked rick they haven't actually had a conversation but since that night a the fire when he was looking at her. he always smiled at her. " Your dad's a police officer, son. He helps people. Probably just came across some folks needing help, that's all. That man, he is tough as nails. I don't know him well but… I could see it in him. Am I right? " He looked up to Shane " oh yeah " he nods

" There ain't nothing gonna stop him from getting back here to you and your mom, I promise you that. " Jim tells Carl again.
She felt bad for him she knew Jim's family died from walkers she couldn't imagine Jasper dying like that.. and her mom. The reminder of the night before made her wince it was like it was always in the back of her head waiting to come out she didn't like it. " All right. Who wants to help me clean some fish, huh? " Shane cleared his throat and offered making the kids perk up " Sweet. Come on, Sophia lily" carl got up " stop calling me that! " Lilith pouted but still she and Sophia ran after him as he ran off to Shane carol and Lori following.

It's now later in the day and Lilith's siting I'm dales rv watching as Andrea searches Around for something " Wrapping paper, color tissue, anything?" Andrea mutters desperately as Dale walks into the rv
" Hi Dale! " Lilith smiles at him " hi Lilith " he smiles back at her before turning to Andrea "Seriously?" He raises his eyebrow at her " How can you not have any? " Andrea question him " Had I been informed of the impending apocalypse I'd have stocked up." He answer's sarcasticly. Lilith furrowed her eyebrows " people were informed? Why wasn't I? " She asks them " scarstic sweetie " he tells her " oh ". " It's Amy's birthday tomorrow. I've been marking days on the calendar just to make sure." Andrea continues. She shows him the mermaid necklace that she got for Amy at the department store in Atlanta. " Ooo shiny " Lillith mutters they both give her a side glance and smile " You don't give a gift unwrapped." Andrea rants making her nod true" Deep breath. I'm sure I'll find something here." Dale reassured

Lilith munches on her fish mhp at the taste. Jasper laughing at her " you got something right there " he points to her chin she looks down and he flicks her chin " hey! " She glares at him well trys to it more looked like a puppy Trying to be mean " loser" he laughed eating his fish. The group enjoys a fish dinner. Everyone is having a good time. "I've got to ask you, man. It's been driving me crazy." Morales breaks the slience "What?" Dale asks " That watch " Morales points to dales watch " see you every day, the same time, winding that thing like a village priest saying mass " morales said huh what does that even mean?  " I've wondered this myself." Jacqui nods " Unless I've misread the signs, the world seems to have come to an end. At least hit a speed bump for a good long while." Jacqui continues Lilith wishes it was just a speed bump maybe everything would go back to normal it was okay to hope right? "But there's you every day winding that stupid watch." Morales continued after Jacqui " Time… it's important to keep track, isn't it? The days at least. Don't you think, Andrea? Back me up here. I like… I like what, um, a father said to son when he gave him a watch that had been handed down through generations. He said, "I give you the mausoleum of all hope and desire, which will fit your individual needs no better than it did mine or my father's before me; I give it to you not that you may remember time, but that you may forget it for a moment now and then and not spend all of your breath trying to conquer it." Dale explained huh forgot time cool!

" You are so werid " Andrea mutters making everyone laugh " It's not me. It's Faulkner. William Faulkner. Maybe my bad paraphrasing." Who? She looks up as Amy stands up brushing of the dirt "Where are you going? " Andrea question her sister
" I have to pee. Jeez, you try to be discreet around here…" Amy rolled her eyes walking to the rv.

Amy Walks out of the rv not a minute later " we don't have toilet paper? " It's a werid thing to think about how this we don't have toliet paper was Amy's last words before a walker came out a bites her neck. Lilith watches in horror as the group scatter people a pushing past her the yelling is jumbled in her ear as she could hardly see Glenn rick T-dog dayrl joining the fight as she starred at all the body's dropping to the floor. The only that pushed her into reality was Jasper's scream she spun around only to find her own mother pushing a walker that was about to attack her it landing exactly on Jasper's face taking a bunch of it away she screamed atleast she thought she did. She ran to his side " Jasper! " She yelled kneeling at his side but it wasn't Jasper not the Jasper she knew. half of his face was gone. She let out a broken sob her hands shook as she shaked him " Jasper! Jasper wake up! This isn't funny I don't like this joke Jasper please! " She sobbed over his body she couldn't hear anything she couldn't see anything only his body the once handsome Jasper young was now one of them a monster

She let out a painfully scream her body going limp her blonde hair had dripped in his blood stanning the end of it. Dirt Covered her body as she shaked his body again. She didn't notice when someone ran by her she didn't notice when someone else got bit nor did she notice the Walker crawling towards her half of its body severed. She only noticed when it grabbed her ankle. She screamed " HELP! " she sobbed and pulled and kicked but it wouldn't let go it sneered and growled as she cried and sob. A voice echoed in her head  'you deresve this lilith' 'this is your punishment' her mothers voice it was haunting her and she almost gave in but in the last splitting second she pictured Jasper his own mother throwing a walker on him to protect herself she was the reason Jasper her brother was dead she screamed again and this time a arrow shot through the air shooting right at the walkers skull and she watched cause her mother wasn't there to cover her eyes or block her ears the only option was to watch the walker fall to the ground it's grip on her ankle loosening.

Dayrl Dixon saved her a stranger a man she barely knew saved her but her own mother couldn't save her son? Why was this world so curel? Dayrl helped her dragged her away from her brother's body and into the rv were she sat safely the tears had stopped she only felt numb now her mother say Infront of her not a single trace of her tears on her face. They could only stare at eachother because this time no she did not forgive her mommy.

Author's note

I tried to write better this time but I do not like this chapters help

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