Memories (Wesley Stromberg)

Chapter 9 'Starting Over'

Cameron's POV

Nathan showed up at my house unannounced after I arrived back at home. Thankfully my dad was still at work because he wouldn't have let him up in my room. We were almost finished on the project, and he hadn't mentioned one word about what happened. I was actually quite surprised.

I guess I spoke too soon.

"Cameron, I know you're upset, but can we like start over or something? I want to be friends, possibly more, and I sort of ruined this chance. It's been bugging me all night."

"If it'll help you sleep at night, we can start over. That doesn't mean I'll go out with you or anything, though. You need to earn my trust back."

"Can I start with this?" I gave him a confused look as he was leaning towards me. Our lips briefly met until he pulled away.

"Okay, wait, that was an awful way to start," he chuckled.

"It really was," I nervously chuckled back.

We finished the project finally, but he still wanted tutored. I tutored him for about an hour, and he was actually making progress. He got a text, so we stopped for a minute.

"I have to get going. Mom needs me to watch Lilly. Thanks for everything, cutie," he winked.

"You're welcome," I couldn't help but smile. I walked him to the door. When we got there, he didn't leave right away. He was hesitating to do something, but I wasn't sure what.

He turned around quickly and looked down at me. He slowly raised his hand towards my cheek. He brushed his thumb across my cheek and tilted my chin up. I knew what was coming next, but my body wouldn't let me stop him. He tilted his head and pressed his lips to mine. I felt my lips attach to his sweet, soft mouth. He pulled away and smiled.

"I couldn't resist," he chuckled. He finally left, leaving me there stunned. I didn't want him to kiss me, but I let him. It was a terrible idea, too. I have all of these mixed feelings now. He hurt me, not to mention with my best friend, and now he wants me. I really have no reason to give him a second chance. Maybe I just want a relationship so bad right now that I'm being desperate. I don't need to stoop lower than I know I deserve, so I just need to stop and relax.

I needed to think, so I went to my thinking place. Once again, I was too focused on my own problem, that I missed Wesley's car right beside mine.

Wesley's POV

"So we meet again. What brought you up here?" Cam sat down next to me and laid her head on my shoulder.

"He kissed me, and I let him. It was a terrible idea. I don't know why I let him," she rambled.

"Did you like it? You know, the kiss?"

"I don't know. Not necessarily. It was just one of those kisses where you only kissed once and didn't really feel like going back for more."

"So, are you dating now?"

"No way. I told him he needs to earn my trust back. Wait, why are you here?"

"I just have this girl on my mind. I can't get her off of it. Not even this beautiful scene will take my mind away from her," I sighed, throwing some rocks down on the ground.

"Oooh, who is it?"

"I can't tell you," I teased. Because it is you, I thought to myself.

"Seriously, Wes, I tell you everything! You can tell me who you have a crush on," she said. I couldn't tell her it was her. She'd be grossed out. She doesn't actually like me back. We're too good of friends, as they all say.

"You really wanna know?"

"No lying," she pleaded.

I looked at her, and she was looking at me as well. She smiled a little and leaned closer to me. I took a deep breath. I didn't want to tell her because I was scared of her reaction.

"It's my mom. I'm really missing her. She's working late all week," I chuckled, trying to make it sound like I was faking the whole thing.

"Really? I hate you," she whined, slapping my arm playfully. I knew she knew I was lying, but she let me play along with her.

"I'm a Momma's boy, okay."

"I love your mom so much. She's such a free spirited woman," she smiled.

"I love her too," I smiled, "but are you for real okay with the whole Nathan thing?"

"I guess. I don't know what I'm really going to do. There's no way I'm going to date him after that. Especially with Haley!"

"It'll all be alright. Has she talked to you about it yet?"

"Nope, and I don't want to talk to her. She can apologize all she wants, but I'm not dealing with that. She knew- you know what? It doesn't matter. I don't even like Nathan," she sighed, calming down.

We talked only a little longer until she decided she should leave. We said good night, even though we'd text each other as soon as we got home, and that was my day. I just wish I would tell her how I felt about her. One day, Wesley, one day.