false god || arthurtv

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"ivy what the actual fuck? you've changed." chris says to her. she doesn't know what to say. she was drunk. so fucking drunk when she posted. she wasn't meant to post for another week.

"chris i'm fucked up. i'm so fucked up. what am i doing with my life?" she begins to cry, as all the anger immediately leaves chris.

he sits down next to the crying girl, wrapping an arm around her. he didn't know what to do. he didn't know what to say.

"you're not fucked up ivy." he says to her. what else does he tell her? that he's the reason rory and arthur are together?

"no chris i am, i've just fucked up my whole career because i'm in love with a stupid fucking perfect guy! chris i'm so fucked. what do i do?" she asks him.

george walks through the door too at this point, his eyes landing on the crying girl. he freezes, not sure what to say or do.

"ivy i need to be honest with you... promise not to be mad?" chris asks as she looks up at him and pulls away slightly.

george watches the scene unfold, knowing exactly what chris is about to say. knowing exactly how ivy is about to react.

"what did you do?" she asks chris. a guy she had known since she was young. a guy she filmed videos with when he was not very well known. a guy who she could probably thank for her career.

"i told arthur not to date you because of your commitment issues because i didn't want him getting hurt." he confesses. he regrets it immediately of course.

"so you're the reason he's with rory? you're the reason he 'moved on' per say?" she asks him with a straight face as his head drops.

she doesn't know what emotions are going through her. anger? dread? fuck she just feels numb.

"i'm sorry." is all he replies as the girl moves completely away from him.

"get out." she simply says to him. she no longer felt like she was in control.

she wanted to forgive him, she wanted to say 'no it's fine you told the truth and was being a good friend' but she just couldn't? she couldn't look at him knowing he's the reason arthur isn't in love with her.

chris doesn't even hesitate to leave, knowing it's for the best but also knowing that ivy would forgive him. he knew that if she doesn't shout she needs time to process.

once chris leaves, she turns to george. george was basically her brother at this point. they loved each other - platonically - so much.

"george... i've lost everyone... everything..." she says as he walks over and brings the girl into a hug.

"you haven't lost me ok? i don't think you're ever losing me unfortunately." he chuckles as she laughs back.

her first proper laugh since arthur. having known george for only 4 months, he is a better friend to her than poppy and lily combined.

the poppy and lily who haven't text her if she's ok.

maybe it's true that you see who your real friends are when you go through the worst times of your life.

all she knew in that moment is that she actually doesn't know anything. she dreads to think how the rest of the year will pan out.

-

arthur

i'm so sorry arthur, to you and rory
you're right that wasn't me. i know she
said no contact but i want you to
know that i was drunk and i'm sorry.

i know she said we're not allowed to
talk but i really want to be friends
again. i miss you so fucking much

i can't talk to you when you're
like this

i'm so fucking sorry arthur please
forgive me

rory's not at mine, let's talk yeah?