You're not alone

Lost

                            11:40pm
Walking down the halls of the hotel Alastor took note of how the normal and cheery attitude was gone..Charlie while she could be annoying with her pestering redemption ideas, but the persistence she showed towards it was admirable and her smile...it could light up the darkness from within the deepest pits in hell.
He walked down the hall towards the lobby...it's been a week since the battle, and things weren't getting much better.
Without Charlie there, the hotel had lost all of its happiness and energy. It felt dark and gloomy even with the lights turned on.
Husk and Angel resorted to drinking more at the bar in attempts to drown the sorrow, Nifty was...well, just being Nifty as normal, taking pleasure in killing bugs
Vaggie... has yet to leave her room with everyone else. Though alastor had caught her in the middle of the night grabbing something to eat, he would try and talk to her but she would always just slip past him...and he didn't blame her, much like lucifer Charlie ment almost everything to Vaggie and it was hitting her hard...but she was at least eating.
Alastor had yet to see lucifer eat anything or leave the room, he's walked by the door at times and heard lucifer crying on the other side..but al was asked to leave him alone so he did, but it didn't stop him from standing on the other side of the door with a few tears of his own.
As most of them know alastor claimed himself as Charlie's other father figure and at first it was solely just to piss off lucifer and it worked amazingly, but as time went on his feelings for Charlie has grown considerably and he did see her as his own offspring, and it was the only time in his life that his chest had a warm and fuzzy feeling.
But it was hell.. warm and fuzzy weren't allowed, so fate intervened and stripped it away from him.

Alastor moved and sat down in his usual spot on the couch and opened up the paper.
He was brought from his attention when he heard some sniffling, looking up, and he saw Vaggie walking by. She walked over to Charlie's idea board that they had brought back in to try and help themselves with. She looked up at it where Charlie's picture was pinned in the middle before she reached out and laid her hand on it.
"...why did you have to go..." She mumbled out sadly. She put her forehead against the board before feeling a tap on her shoulder.
"Go away, Al..." She muttered out but only received another tap on the shoulder.
"What is it!" She snapped out as she spun around and stopped seeing Al there holding a picture of her and Charlie hugging each other during one of the trust exercises, and a picture of her tricking alastor into doing a selfie. One of the few pictures that Alastor was not glitched out on and actually seen clearly.
"You're not the only one who lost someone..." Alastor said quietly as vaggie took the picture and looked at it. Looking up, she saw a few tears in the corner of his eyes threatening to spill out.
"She...may have been your girlfriend..but she was like a daughter to me...and not just to piss off lucifer..sure her redemption ideas were a bit annoying but..she was persistent...and I admired it in her, she always saw the good in people no matter what, even me....and I...I miss her Vaggie" Alastor said softly as the tears moved down he cheeks now, he was trying his hardest to not start crying.
Vaggie looked at him, and her gaze softend, she always thought he was a selfish demon. But here he was, breaking down in front of her and showing a vulnerable side of himself.
"I...I'm lost Al..I don't know to do"
Alastor was silent for a moment
"What would Charlie say if she was here?" he asked her. Vaggie looked at him, confused a little before he continued.
"She would drag us to a chair and make us talk about what's upsetting us...then go out of her way to try and cheer us up and put on a silly trust exercise" he said with made vaggie smile some at the thought. Charlie would put others' feelings in front of hers every single time..it was one thing she loved about her.
"We both know what is upsetting everyone...and it's a unbearable pain, she was the beating heart that brought us all together...the real question is how do we move past this" Alastor said as he looked at Vaggie seeing a small spark behind her eyes

Alastor was right. Charlie would hate to see everyone moping around. She would want them to be happy and trying to be redeemed and help other sinners, and they were failing it... They were failing her.
"I know...it will never be the same without her here...but we can't let her dream die, we owe it to her to make it happen..she died believing in it" Alastor said to her and he put a hand on her shoulder with a soft smile. Vaggie found herself smiling some for the first time since she lost her, and she nodded at this. She moved in closer and gave Alastor a hug which did surprise him at first...they never really got along that good, more bared with each other for Charlie's sake, but after a moment he returned the hug.

"Thank you, alastor...for everything.. Charlie would be proud of you for not giving up on this," Vaggie said as she held him.
"She would be proud of both of us, my dear... you know she could never hate us,"
Vaggie could help but smile and hug him just a little bit tighter at hearing this. After a moment, they let go of each other before Vaggie moved back to her room. Her steps were full of more life and energy than before, making Alastor smile some as he looked over at Charlie's poster.
"Don't worry, my dear... we are not giving up on this,"

                    Next morning

Alastor came down into the lobby again and stopped nearby. Looking at the lobby, he saw Husker, Angel, and Nifty sitting on the couch as Vaggie stood at Charlie's board talking about something. Wasting no more time, he picked up his pace some and moved and stood behind the couch.

"We can't just sit here and mope about the rest of our lives...it's not what Charlie would want us to do," she said, taking a soft breath.
"We owe it to her to continue her plan of redemption and to prove heaven wrong...she died believing in this plan...let's not let it die with her" she said as she put out her hand.
"I can't do this alone...Im....I need your help," she said softly before looking down. She felt a hand on hers and looked up to see Angel there with a smile, and then Husk followed along with Nifty and lastly Alastor himself.

"Charlie was one of the only people that truly cared for me..and that's not an easy task toots," Angel said with a nod.
"You give us the directions, and we'll be the category 5 behind you," Husk added in with a smirk.
"For Charlie," Vaggie said with a smile before they all nodded
"For Charlie!" They all cheered out now.
Alastor smiled at this as the spirit returned for just a moment in the hotel, the gloomy feeling was gone..things felt a little more normal, which made him smile a bit.

Through the day, they were coming up with plans and ideas on how to get sinners to join the hotel or new trust exercises.
Before they knew it, it was already dark, and everyone made their way to bed, Alastor was taking his usual walk around the hotel. He stopped by lucifers room and listened...he didn't hear the usual sobbing, this was different.

Lucifer sat in his room a complete mess. His hair was all out of wack with dark bags under his red and puffy eyes. From the lack of sleep and non-stop crying, he was still on the floor. He wasn't worth the bed. His entire world had been flipped upside down. He was just getting reunited with his daughter to have her ripped away from him...the pain was unbearable. He would rather fall 100 times than go through this pain.
He was at a complete loss with his life...he didn't know what to do.
In his hands, he held a dagger that he kept for times like this. He looked at the dagger and then at his wrist and pale white skin.
"Do it..you deserve this you worthless fucker...you promised your daughter and failed to protect her. What kind of father are you!" His brain screamed at him. He brought the blade down and pushed it against his wrist before slicing across it. The golden blood instantly started to pump from his wound yet he felt no emotions...just pain, It was all he deserved. He couldn't die so what's the point, all he
Could do was loose consciousness
he took the knife and started to slash furiously at both of his arms.
"AAHHHHHHHH!!" With a yell of frustration he threw the knife across the room and embedding it into the wall before slamming his head back against the wall and starting to cry again.
"Im...I'm so..sorry..appleseed, I failed you...I...deserve to die..." He cried out, as the blood flowed from his wounds he slowly slipped out of it and into a healing rest. He heard faint sounds but didn't know what it was.
"LUCIFER!" Was the last thing he heard before everything went black around him