You're not alone

Worthless

Alastor stood on the other side if the door before he heard the scream from lucifer. Instantly he was grabbing the door handle and trying to open it but was locked. Without even thinking he moved back and raised his foot and kicked the door with such force it came right off the hinges and splintered around the handle.
He quickly moved inside fearing the worst...but was not ready for what he found.
"LUCIFER!" He cried out seeing the short king on the floor. His legs out flat and his arms hung limp at his sides, Alastor ran over and quickly got down beside him, taking note of his arms, dozens of gashes and cuts along then. His golden blood was slowly oozing from his cuts and puddling up on the floor, wasting no time he moved to the bathroom and started tearing through the drawers looking for anything that could help him. He soon ran back with towels in his hands and moved wrapping them around the cuts.
"You stupid imbecile..." Alastor muttered out as he used what knowledge he had to treat the wounds. As much as he wanted to cuss out lucifer and tell him he's a massive idiot...he just couldn't, Alastor seen Charlie like a daughter...but she was lucifers actual daughter, she was his entire world. He tied the rags in knots before picking up lucifer and looking at him...he couldn't help but admire the kings face..it was finally relaxed a little, his pale white skin. Alastor had to stop himself as he admired the details on lucifer. Maybe he could finally build up the nerve to tell lucifer how he felt...but with everything that had just happened it didn't feel right.
Alastor moved and laid him down on the bed with a soft sigh, he felt for the king he really did. As he went to leave he felt a hand grabbing his sleeve, he looked down and seen lucifer gripping his sleeve, he looked up to see his eyes barely cracked and just...broken.
"D..dont...leave..m...me" Hearing the broken voice he whimpered out made Alastor's heart break even farther as he nodded
"I wouldn't dream of doing such a thing...rest my king" he moved over and sat on the side of the bed as lucifers eyes closed yet again. There was no point asking him why he did It, alastor already knew why but that wasn't going to stop him from talking about it. He watched for now as lucifer laid there on the bed resting

Lucifer stayed asleep for the rest of the night before waking up with a groan. His eyes slowly fluttered open as the events of last night came to his mind. He felt defeated...broken and just...worthless. he looked at his arms to see where the cuts where only to see rags tied around them.
"...what the?" He said as he looked them before looking over and blushing some. Laying in the bed beside was none other then Alastor, his head was rolled on his side towards lucifers while he laid on his back, lucifer couldn't look away from him. Seeing the details of his face, his skin tone and his fluffy deer ears...oh his ears he wanted to grab them...
"Wait...what am I thinking!....I should hate him, but those ears...no bad luci! But earssss"

Lucifer groaned again blaming it all on the blood loss. He reached up to undo the rags as he undid the knots pulled them off revealing no scares and just smooth skin, He sighed and just stared at the ceiling.
"Care to explain yourself" he heard a voice say beside him. Without even looking at Alastor he just laid there.
"Im...I..." the lump was moving back to his throat. He laid there for a moment trying to find the words.
"Not...10 minutes before..I promised I would protect her...keep her safe from harm" If even possible Alastors heart broke even more...he didn't know what had actually during the fight.
"Can you...tell me about it" he asked softly as he laid beside him.
"I...told her I would..protect her...a..and then it happened..I didn't even realize it until it was to late...I flew there as fast as I could b...but it..was no good...my charlie...my little appleseed..." the tears were already flowing down the side of his face. It was getting harder and harder to get the words out as he was relieving it all.
"Lucifer...it wasn't you" Alastor was cut off mid sentence
"I HAD ONE JOB AND I GOT IT WRONG!" He said as he sat up and stared at Alastor. His body started to tremble as the waterworks opened
"I...I...h..had one job..and I failed..I...failed..as a father...to protect her. I..I..you wouldnt...understand"
The words failed to come out as his brain was succumbing to the guilt and grief of everything. He felt a pair of hands grip his shoulders as he opened his eyes and seen alastor there in front of him.
"Lucifer listen to me...does it suck yes it does, I want to do nothing more then ball up in the floor beside you and bawl my eyes out, she was like a daughter to me to so don't tell me I don't understand...not to the same degree but I feel the pain...you did...everything you could that day, and no one could do anything more...it wasn't your fault" Alastor said firmly as he looked into his eyes.
"Im..I'm worthless...I failed my little girl when she needed me most" he replied as his eyes were running out of tears.
"Lucifer...no one could've done more...but you can't keep yourself locked up in here..you need to eat and you need to move on" Alastor said softly as he tried to support him
"Ho..how can I move on..she was my world..what's left in it"
"Me!...I'm in it luci" He said shaking his shoulders some.
"Y..you?...but..what?" Luci asked blinking confused.
"You..caught my eye when you first showed up..but ive..never been with someone or even felt like this..so I was a bit afraid to say anything, and then this tragedy happen and nothing felt right...I cant...I can't loose you to lucifer..don't make me go through that pain..please..im not...im not strong enough, loosing charlie nearly killed me" Alastor said as he looked down at the bed now.
"...I...didn't know you..felt like that Al..I cant..say I return the feelings and it's not a good time to go...through this..but later, come back around to it?" Lucifer asked him. With a small smile, it was a bit of a distraction that did help him. Alastor looked up with a small smile and nodded at this.
"Now...let's go get you something to eat?"
Lucifer slowly nodded his head as his stomach growled out. They got up and left the room before lucifer stopped.
"What happened to my door!?" He asked looking at the door laying in the floor with splinters of wood.
"It was a casualty of someone being a imbecile" Alastor said with a light laugh before stopping seeing his face fall some.
"Another thing got hurt because of me..." Lucifer mumbled out
"Nonono Luci...i didn't mean it like that..was trying to lighten the mood some" Alastor said trying to make it better. Lucifer nodded at this and followed alastor to the kitchen, after making some of his famous jambalaya for lucifer. He smiled as he smelled it's glorious scent.
"Your...a really good cook Al" Alastor nodded at this in a sign of appreciation. Lucifer dug into his bowl of soup eating it by the mouth fulls. His stomach rumbled out in appreciation as it craved the nutrition it had been deprived of

They sat there eating in the kitchen for a minute before a scream rang out through the hotel followed by a thud. Alastor and lucifer looked at each other before getting up and moving to find the source of the sound, they walked out of the kitchen to the lobby and they both froze. There in the floor laid Vaggie passed out and beside her picking her up off the floor was...her
Lucifer stared at her and his brain just wasn't working...and Alastors wasn't much better either.
"Dad, Al you mind helping me get her to the couch?"
"....charlie...." Lucifer breathed out