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𝙔/𝙉 𝙋•𝙊•𝙑
As I made my way down to the restroom to clear my head from the people and chaos; anxiety induced my body, I saw the one person I was not prepared to see.

The love of my life.

It was complicated, we ended months ago, I lost count after the sleepless and lonely nights. No one knew about our 'secret' love; there were suspicions but we never cared to confirm cause we loved the privacy. But life got in the way, then work, then we got into our heads and finally we cut it off.

I would be lying if I said that was what I wanted but I also did not want to force her to continue with something that was hurting us in the long run. I do strongly believe we could have worked it out and it was just a bump on the road but I stayed quiet and now I'm here in the bathroom taking deep breaths and reciting affirmations to myself.

"𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆, 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗼𝘂𝘁. 𝗦𝗵𝗲'𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗼-" I was cut off by the door opening, maybe I should have gone into a stall instead of looking insane talking to myself in a public bathroom

"𝗬/𝗡?"...Please kill me right now.

"𝗔𝘂𝗯𝗿𝗲𝘆!?" A silence fell between us as we stared at each other

"𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆?" She worriedly asked examining my flustered state

"𝗜-𝗜'𝗺 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗲, 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲" I partially lied

"𝗨𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲"

"𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲?"

"𝗡𝗼. 𝗜 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗮𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗰𝘁, 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂"

"𝗢𝗵? 𝘄𝗵𝘆?"

"𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗵𝘀 𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝘄𝗲'𝘃𝗲 𝘀𝗽𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗻. 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂" At this point I felt even more overwhelmed than I had before

This is not what I wanted. I came in here to avoid her but the universe seemed to have other plans for me.

"𝗔𝘂𝗯𝗿𝗲𝘆, 𝗜'𝗺 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗺𝗲𝗱 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄, 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗴𝗼 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲"

"𝗜'𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲" She offered

"𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁-"

"𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼."

I sighed giving up, if this is what the universe wants then I have no choice but to let it be.

The walk to the car was silent, i had so much to say but nothing at all. I got in the passengers seat keeping my focus out the window as she drove off.

"𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻?" Aubrey asked breaking the silence

"𝗜'𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆"

"𝗪𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗶𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆?"

𝐹𝑢𝑐𝑘．

"𝗡𝗼 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁?" I lied putting on my best poker face

"𝗖𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗶𝗴𝗻𝗼𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂" This was becoming too confrontational, i felt the anxiety rising each second that went by

Aubrey noticed my state and sighed "𝗜'𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱, 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆"

"𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗔𝘂𝗯𝗿𝗲𝘆 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀-"

"𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗸 𝗬/𝗡, 𝗜 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱" She placed her hand on top of mine reassuring me, little did she know that it just made me even more nervous than I was before

"𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂" She claims as she stops at a red light

"𝗬-𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼?"

"𝗜 𝗱𝗼...𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝘀 𝗮𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁" She confessed

"𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗳𝗶𝗻-"

"𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗲, 𝗜 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗜 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁; 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗽𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗲"

"𝗔𝘂𝗯𝗿𝗲𝘆 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆, 𝘄𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁"

"𝗺𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁, 𝗺𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗬/𝗡"

I didn't say anything, I just stared into her eyes seeking the truth. As I was about to say something the light turned green and now all her attention was on the road. The ride stayed silent until we got to my house, I got out of the car not before giving her hand a little squeeze to come inside. Opening the door I dropped everything sitting on my couch staring off into space; she sat next to me shoulder to shoulder in deep thought.

"𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗼𝗼"

"𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼?"

"𝗜 𝗱𝗼, 𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗲𝗹𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗜 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲" With that said our faces inches apart we stared into our eyes

She closed the gap between us with a passionate kiss that sent me into orbit.

My God I've missed her so much.

𝙰𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚛'𝚜 𝙽𝚘𝚝𝚎 ✍︎︎
𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒 𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝙸'𝚍 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐.