Chapter 31
*Jack J P. O. V*
I arrive at home, throw my bag at the wall, tug at my hair and groan in frustration. Then my phone beeps and i snap my head towards it and give it a death glare.
From shawn:
I know your mad at us. But theirs a party at emersons, everyones going. We would love it if you came. 1902 grove, at 7
I sigh and debate on going or not. Then i decide it would be best if i went. Get out of my sweet suburban tomb. I play the all time low playlist and blast it through the house.
Hold on tight
This ride is a wild one
I sing loudly as i step into the shower and replenish my body. Then stepping out and changing into a white t-shirt and black pants.
Then i step in front of the mirror and cringe at the sight. Busted lip and bruised cheek. I shrug and style my hair. Then once im finished i check the time and see its 6:45 so i grab my keys and head off to the house.
After listening to missing you by all time low about 20 times. I finally find the large house with lots of cars.
With the base ringing, the music that can be mistaken for an earth quake, the smell of alcohol and cigarettes, and many adolescent kids griding on eachother does make my chest tighten and anxiety kick in, but i take deep breaths.
I spot shawn and taylor and tap shawn lightly on the back, they turn around and their eyes light up at my sight.
"Hey come on. Everyone's over here" taylor shouts and i follow behind the two until my eyes spot the familiar faces, and my chest tightens at the sight of him.
"Yo. Were gonna play truth or dare" cameron yells and our group gets in a circle.
"Taylor, truth or dare" hayes smirks and everyone 'oohs' or they rub their hands together in excitement.
"Dare" taylor smirks.
The game goes on until its my turn.
"Johnson. Truth or dare" nash asks
"Truth" i say
"Are you a butt virgin" nash asks and i burst out laughing.
"You all know the answer to that" i laugh and everyone laughs as well. Except for gilinsky, whom which is blushing madly.
I like this me..
After a while we all get bored and my mind comes up with a brilliant idea.
"Lets all go to my house" i say to the guys and they all nod and go to grab their belongings.
I get back home and what do you know? Jack is second. We both walk in and i stand, leaning on the island. Waiting for the others. I assume they went to get snacks
"Your stubborn" he sighs
I just roll my eyes and scoff loudly.
"Im not stubborn" i say like a child and cross my arms.
"Look at you right now!" he yells and i scoff again and turn around, walking away.
"Get. Your. Ass. Over. Here. Now" he says sternly and i turn around.
"And if i don't?" i smirk and he raises an eyebrow and storms to me.
He pushes me to the wall and crashes his lips to mine, in which i kiss back as hard.
"Its about time" i hear sammys voice and i pull away with deep breaths and gilinsky smirks.
I push away and head to the couch, ignoring everyone's sly comments.
What have i done??
Hes the one who wrote me a note saying we couldn't be together. What else does he want from me?!
As much as i enjoyed the kiss, i regret it as well. I just started becoming happy and then hes gonna drop me. Chew me up and spit me out.
I stay silent as the boys make a bed on the floor. They all laugh and smile and i fake a smile as well. But my mind cloud with the thoughts of that kiss.
Fuck you finnegan.
Hours pass and all we do is eat like fat pigs. All of the couples cuddling or kissing, meanwhile, me and jack are trying to watch the movie on opposite sides of the couch.
But, guilty, i keep glancing at the beautiful creature.
And again. Fuck you finnegan. And your beautiful self.
"Im going to bed" i announce and everyone nods.
I travel upstairs and lay down in my bed. Snuggling close to the blanket. The door creeks open, but i pretend im asleep. The bed sloops down and i hear a faint whisper.
"Hey jack. Your asleep. So im gonna be honest with you, I'm so scared to tell you how i really feel. I love you. I love you so much. That note that i wrote to you was a lie. I don't know how you believed it, but. You know it was a lie. Im trying to keep you safe. Im in deep shit, i don't want you to get dragged along. I love you" he sobs and my eyes widen. Hes crying...
I sit up and he wipes his eyes and clears his throat.
"Dont give me that bullshit"i say softly and hold his face in my hands.
"Stand up" i demand and he stands as well as i.
I pull him into a long, tight hug as he falls apart in my arms. Little did i know that he felt exactly how i did when we were away from eachother.
A rose that was slowly wilting away...
"Shhh" i coo and kiss his neck gently. Rubbing my hands in his hair as he continues to sob.
"Its gonna be okay, my love" i promise and kiss his lips gently. Then lay us both on the bed.
Me laying down on his chest, listening to his heart beat and rubbing my hands in his hair. And after a while, my room fills with slight snores and i smile lightly.
I missed him. So much.
I study his body and my eyes widen at the sight.
Deep, purple gashes on his left wrist....
"No"i whisper to myself as a tear falls.
A/n- I'm really proud of this chapter
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Love you. Xx
~iamalyssa47
