after season seven

Chapter 27: Eddie

After an excruciating long day of being with Christopher and Buck, Chris finally goes to bed. Normally, I would be more than happy to spend this much time with them but it is so painful being in such a close proximity to Buck and not being able to do anything about it.

The second I hear Chris settle in his bed for the night, I turn towards Buck and bite my bottom lip.

"So..."

"So..."

"Do you wanna head out back so we can talk properly?" I ask.

He smiles. "Sure."

Buck follows me as we head to our backyard and my anxiety starts kicking in. It's the first time we've been truly alone since our kiss.

Once we're outside, I turn around to face him and anxiously pick at my fingers. Before I can get a word out, Buck grabs each of my hands with his and holds them out in front of us.

"Relax, Eddie. It's just me."

My lips tilt up in a small smile. "I just... don't really know what to say. I mean, I'm still figuring everything out for myself and-"

"Eddie." Buck interrupts. "We don't have to rush into anything. Just reassure me that this is what you truly want."

"What do you mean, this?"

"Something more, a lot more, than a friendship."

I sheepishly nod.

"With words, Eddie. Please."

"Yes, that's what I want."

"Perfect because I happen to want that, too."

We both grin at each other before falling into a fit of laughter. I don't know why I'm so nervous right now when I'm just talking to my Buck.

Suddenly, Buck stops laughing and he stares straight into my eyes. "Can I-"

"Yes." I interrupt him before he can even finish his question and I bring his face to mine as our lips seal in a searing kiss. After a short moment of shock, Buck kisses me back passionately and I finally feel at home again. It's been almost a week since our last kiss but it feels like it has been years since I've felt this sensation.

Buck trails his hand up my chest and I feel a trail of heat igniting within me. I slip my tongue past the barrier of his lips, and this time, I'm not met with any resistance. Buck kisses me back with just as much fervor, as our tongues tangle and we explore each other's mouths.

Buck pulls away from the kiss but before I can protest, he trails kisses down the side of my jaw before he reaches my neck. He sucks on my neck and I can't help the moan that slips out of my mouth as I feel his warm mouth against it. Buck pulls away and grins at me before I grab his face to kiss him again.

"Wait, wait, wait." Buck says as he pulls away. "Aren't we supposed to be taking things slow?"

"Is this not slow? I mean, we've known each other for over 6 years now."

"I know but we weren't dating all that time. I know we've always been very close but that doesn't mean we have to just head first into this. We should separate who we are when we are in a relationship with each other from who we are when we are best friends."

I rear my head back in shock. "Damn, Buck. That was really deep."

He looks down and laughs and he scratches the back of his neck. Then he looks up at me and grabs my hands again, suddenly serious. "I just don't want to mess this up with you. I've rushed into so many relationships in the past and none of them end up working out and I just don't want that to happen with you. You're the most important person in my life, Eddie. I don't know what I would do if I ever lost you."

I reach out and hug Buck. "You're not gonna lose me Buck. We're Buck and Eddie. Nothing in this world could keep us away from each other."

Buck crumples in my arms as his legs give out. I slowly kneel and bring us both into a sit position on the floor.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'm just really grateful for you." I can hear the tears in his voice as he wipes his eyes.

"I'm even more grateful for you."