It came back.
How could i think i'm good enough ? The paradoxe is,I know i am. But what if, what if, what if.
What if it is all just to much ? What if i stop smiling ? Will my world stop spinning ?
Is she ever going to stop seeing the sun in my eyes ? I struggle to see it in this moment. But its not that bad, to be honest. I just, i just stopped thriving. I cant be thriving all the time, right? But i NEED it to come back. The confidence, the self love, everything i built during 5 weeks.
Is it Paris ?
Is it the going back to school stressing me ?
Surely i am putting too much pressure on myself. But if i fail, will i still have self esteem ? What does it holds on to ? what's the breaking point ? it is all kinda scary.
YOU ARE READING
in my 18yr old mind
Spirituala key to my soul hi there !! I basically like to write small pieces of text in english as I live my chaotic and teenage life. Read it, don't, I couldn't care less 🫶🏻
