in my 18yr old mind

2. I wouldn't mind dying young.

Hi. Although im only 18, i wouldn't mind dying young. Wait, let me explain.
What i always told myself when i was younger is that, if there's one thing i want for myslef in my life, is to feel good in my mind and body, and to live without regrets. And i don't know what people would think about this, actually its not like I care, but here it is : i feel like i lived a whole life already. I experienced those waves of wisdom recently, and i would just look back on everything ive accomplished already, everything i felt and did that was so wholesome, and worth of humankind. At least, in my opinion.
Everytime i made a friend, or lost a friend, and got over it and understood my mistakes. Every time i genuinely cared about people around me and tried to lift them up if they were sad, tried to bound on a spiritual level. To learn about them, even if my memory is bad, truly brought me so much. And the passion i feel, i felt and will feel again, when im out kitesurfing in the sea by myself, or riding a pony i love through irish countryside. That passion about sports and sensations, the way it makes me fuller and brighter, and gets my gratitude higher than ever to be that lucky. That particular feeling, of freedom and independence, that feeling that almost says "the world's mine."
That's why, i wouldn't mind dying. i always picture Old people on their last breath saying "that was a good life". Well, my life was so good already..