Heart of a rogue

Chapter 39

The quiet of my cabin was a stark contrast to the whirlwind of emotions churning inside me. I sat at the desk, the dim light of the lamp casting a soft glow over the paper in front of me. My hands trembled slightly as I picked up the pen, knowing that these words would be my final communication with Abel and Joshua before I left for the spirit realm.

The room was filled with the faint rustling of paper and the scratch of the pen as I began writing the letters. Each word carried the weight of my feelings, the memories we shared, and the hope for the future.

To Abel, or should I say Twinkle Star Sparkly Rainbow, or just Twinkle for short...

I take pen to paper with a heavy heart, knowing that saying goodbye is never easy. You've been a steadfast friend, a reliable ally, and someone I've come to respect deeply. As I prepare to leave, I want to thank you for all the support and understanding you've shown me. Your loyalty and courage have meant more to me than words can express. Because of you, this rogue of a Luna has actually turned out quite right. Well, I'm not killing daily anymore that is. I don't just tear out everyone's heart anymore for just breathing at me. So thanks for that, thanks for calming the ripples in my mind. 

Please take care of Declan in my absence. He's going through so much right now, and he'll need all the support he can get. Help him find his path, and be there for him as he navigates this difficult time. I trust you to watch over him and ensure that he remains strong.

Additionally, I ask you to keep an eye on the pack. I know that with your guidance, they will grow into their roles with the strength and wisdom that they need.

Thank you, Abel, for everything. I'll always hold our shared moments close to my heart.

With deepest gratitude, Lucille

To Joshua,

As I write this, I find myself reflecting on the journey we've been through together. Your strength and kindness have been a beacon of light during some of my darkest moments. Your unwavering support and your ability to see the best in people have always inspired me.

I'm leaving soon, and while my heart aches at the thought of parting, I want to ask you to look after Declan. He needs the comfort of friends, but mostly his Beta, now more than ever. Help him through this challenging time, and be a pillar of support for him.

Thank you for being a friend to me and for your understanding. In the end, I'm truly not the Luna you needed. But I hope you understand as my friend.

Warmest regards, Lucille

With the letters completed, I folded them carefully and placed them in envelopes. The task felt bittersweet, a final gesture of love and responsibility before my departure. I knew that as much as I needed to find my place in the spirit realm, my heart would always remain tied to the people I was leaving behind. I'll visit soon, I hope. 

I took a deep breath and glanced around the room one last time. The memories of the past months played like a movie in my mind—moments of joy, pain, and growth. I loved this little cabin though. I left the letters on the table, with fresh flowers. I knew they'd be coming here the next couple of days when they hear from Declan I'm gone, they'll want my scent. In their hearts, I'm still their Luna. 

With one final look at the letters, I knew that they would carry a piece of my heart to the people I cherished. It was time to move forward, leaving behind a part of myself while hoping for the best for those I loved. I guess somewhere I do have the heart of a Luna after all, but one that isn't needed here., right now. 

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I'm honestly unsure about how to wrap up the ending now. I had an idea I liked, but after reading your comments, I'm second-guessing it. 

I just don't feel the connection between Declan and Lucille anymore. He was always trying to change her, and I don't know what kind of relationships other people are in, but I always thought you should just be yourself, not have to change for someone else. I even went back and started rereading Heart of a Rogue from the beginning, and I realized I really don't like Declan at all. Actually, I hate him—he's such a badly written character! I totally wrote him wrong.

Same with Leo. He was supposed to be a little unhinged because the normal world was messing with his mind, kind of like Lucille. She's also not your typical werewolf—she's more aggressive, and they both feel more like themselves in the spirit world. But I took Leo's actions way too far, which made a lot of people dislike him too. I think I've just been reading too many dark romances lately, haha. I do enjoy the whole "falling in love with the antagonist" concept lol.

Now I'm at a point where I feel like something needs to change in the story, either change Leo so he is a little bit unhinged but he doesn't take it too far or I need to redeem Declan a lot and just bite through my pain of his character development. 

I don't want Lucille to end up alone either. Maybe she adopts a spirit child and lives happily ever after? I don't know, lol. I really should've planned this story out better from the start to avoid this mess, but here we are. Oops. At least I've learned a lot from it, so that's something!

I'll keep thinking about it, but honestly, I'm too lazy to make major changes, or well, I just want to move on to the next story. I'm more excited to focus on my new project, which is way more planned out. As I've always said, I'm not going to put the story on hiatus or stop writing it. But I do need to take some time to think about the ending. Hopefully I know what to do in a week.