MIDNIGHT PHANTOM; Our Universe

Part 40

"Because I feel like, with all the things you're hiding, I no longer know what's true and what's not. Why do I feel like you have so many secrets and so much you're keeping from me?" hindi ako makapaniwalang sinabe niya sakin yon after i confessed? grabe ka miks!

What's the point of knowing miks?

Kasalukuyan kaming nasa byahe pauwi, tapos na ang Awarding tapos na ang Sports fest,. Thank god it's friday! back to reality ulit next week.

madilim na din halos nang makauwi kami sa MP house, nag handa na si aubrey ng lulutuin for our dinner kaya pumunta muna ako sa kwarto para makapagpahinga

While scrolling on my soc med, i saw denise post of miks picture at the awarding ceremony and i saw miks repost it.,

sweet.

I just put on my headphones and started writing a new song at the study table facing the window when I caught a glimpse of the moon outside.

Bakit ba sa tuwing nakikita kita pakiramdam ko ang lungkot lungkot ko?

Lord? kung deserve ko man po yung nararamdaman ko ngayon, wag n'yo po sana akong papabayaan kasi hindi ko po kaya, Wala akong mapagsabihan every time na hindi ako okay kase ayoko narin naman dumagdag pa sa iisipin nila, Sana dumating yung araw na maramdaman ko ulit yung saya, kase ngayon, halo halo na yung nararamdaman ko, yung sakit yung lungkot at pagod na nararamamdaman ko,

Hindi ko maiwasang isipin sa ngayon kung masaya paba ako? masaya paba ako sa mga desisyon ko, kase parang nakaka drain na.,

I started to write, I held my pen and pointed it at the blank paper, just like before, deciding to express myself through songwriting. Maybe this is my way of releasing everything I feel. I started to think about the reasons for my resentment, beginning with the painful ones and going deeper into the most profound causes

Miks.... You and you alone are the only reason why I write songs, from then until now.. Here I am again, writing a song about my love for you that never ends and has never been reciprocated.,

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(AN:/// Sorry readers, hindi ko alam kung papalitan ko ba yung He ng She kase patungkol naman ito kay miks but i decided na wag nalang baka masira yung kanta at mayare pako sa Swiftie's out there)
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Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Ang sakit ah! I can still remember how you talked about her (denise) finally miks, at least she's there when you need someone kasi hindi ko naman magagawa yon sayo eh, and I'm sorry...

Drew talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
But I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

Mygod! First stanza palang, I feel like I regret why I even started this, nung gabing yon miks, Nung sinabi mong mahal mo siya? gusto ko nang mag walk out, gusto ko nang tumakbo papalayo sayo,. hinihiling ko nasa alam mo yung nararamdaman ko para kahit papaano nag dalawang isip kang sabihin yon, but no miks., Tangina! eto nanaman ako! iiniiyakan ka! Gusto ko nang mapagod, gusto ko nang mag letgo! pero pucha everytime i tried i always find my ways to keep on holding kahit wala naman akong panghahawakan pa.,

Kinuha ko yung gitarang nakasandal sa gilid ng side table ko at sinubukan kantahin ulit yung kantang naisulat ko para bigyan ito ng ritmo, kinuha ko din ang phone ko para irecord ang kanta, ipagpapatuloy ko lang pagtugtog ng gitara whatever words came out, bahala na I will try, masyadong malalim ang nararamdaman ko ngayon and i think maraming salita ang kaya kong ilabas,
Dahan dahan kong ipinikit ang mata ko at nagsimulang damhin ang kanta habang ang kamay ko ay patuloy sa pag tipa ng gitara