Little Miss Successful

Part 10

Narrated
The Jabavu quadruplets are sitting awkwardly in the lounge staring at the man they now know as their father.They are all not sure how to act around him but deep down are all happy that he's finally here.No one has said anything to anyone because they are all stuck in their own bubble.
Lubabalo stands up and goes to check up on Amahle.When he gets to her room he gets surprised by the fact that she's not in her bed.He hears sobs coming from the bathroom and worriedly knocks.
Amahle's POV
I hear someone knocking,I quickly flush the blade down the toilet. I pack the rest of the blades in speed.
Luba:Mahlez?
Me:Bhuti?
Luba:Are you okay in there?
Me:Y...ye...yes Im okay bhuti
Luba:(suspiciously)Then why were you crying?
Me: I wasn't njena
Luba:Open up so I can see
Me:(shouting)No!...I mean I'm okay there's no need. I was watching a really sad video which was why I was crying.
Luba:Mmmhmm if you say so.
After a few minutes I hear my door closing and I proceed to wash my wrists. I then grab the First Aid kit and clean the scars.I put dark bandages around my wrists and wear my hoodie so it doesn't seem obvious. I make sure the bathroom is clean and then walk out going downstairs.
I walk to the lounge and I stop in my tracks when I see my dad there.My mom said we should welcome him with open arms which is fair because it's not like he chose to not be in our lives all these years.I walk closer and purposely sit next to him on the 2 sitter couch.
Me:(smiling)Molo tata.
Dad:(smiling)Molo ntombi yam.
Being called that feels so good,something in my heart shifts.I look at my brothers who are all of a sudden mute. I mouth to them that they should greet.
Luba:(clearing throat)Oh...uh...uhmm molo tata.
Zuko:Tyma
Lami:Hello ta
Wabo:Molo
Dad:Niyaphila kodwa ?
Us :ewe ta
Me:Should I bring you tea ,coffee,juice or water?
Dad:Water will be just fine thank you.
I go to the kitchen and pour some water from the dispenser into a glass.I put the glass on a side plate and bring it to him with a tray.That's one of the many things mom taught us.
Dad:Ndiyabulela.
I sit down as he gulps down the water in one go.
Dad:Well mandingene kumxholo.Firstly ngokwegama ndingu Zwelibanzi Lukhokonke wakwa Dlamini nina ningobani?
Me: Amahle Samukelisiwe Jabavu
Wabo:Ndingu Lonwabo Bekizizwe Jabavu
Zuko:Mna ndingu Luzuko Bonginkosi Jabavu
Luba:Lubabalo Bhekumbuso Jabavu
Lami:Lulamile Bangizwe Jabavu
Dad: I must say you all have nice names with strong meanings.Ndingowa kuGatyane in other words eWillow Vale.I'm turning 64 this year.I have royal blood running through my veins,I'm a king but will soon step down as the first born son amongst you guys will be taking over.

We all look at Lubabalo as he shifts uncomfortably in his seat,shame he'll be king by fire by force noba akafuni.
Dad:I have a caring and loving wife with two sons both slightly younger than you guys.I was saddened by the sudden death of your mother reason because I still had unsettled business with her.I'm here to step up as your father and lead you through this course of life.You boys will be shifting as soon as I have introduced you to my ancestors and made certain ceremonies for you.You mafungwashe also need to be introduced to my ancestors in order to be able to proceed to the next step of finding your chosen one.Hopefully we'll all work together and you'll soon learn to trust and love me as I do to you.No parent wishes to not be able to raise their children but I won't be going down that lane again ,it's in the past.Hopefully you will treat my wife as how you would treat your own birth mom.I promise you she means well and if she doesn't like you or doesn't treat you guys well please don't hesitate to tell me...Now I don't know if I would be overstepping boundaries if I would ask for a hug from each one of you?
Ndiyanicela boDlamini,
ooZizi,
Jama kaSjadu,
Mabetshe,
Bhanise,
Ngxib'inoboya
ooFakade
Khatsini
Mtikitiki
Nomana ndab'azithethwa intsuku ngentsuku
Nonyathi
ooBhengu
Lightning flashes outside as he praises his ,I mean our ancestors and heavy rain pours.Okayyy...Everyone in the room is in tears,me ,my dad and brothers.
Luba gets up and walks away to his room,I guess he needs some time alone.Zuko stands probably also going to walk away but to my surprise he walks to dad ,kneels before him and envelopes him in a hug.
Zuko:Tata
Dad:Nyana
He then stands up after hugging dad who's sitting and Lami walks to dad then hugs him.Wabo also does the same.This is such an emotional moment. I stand up and throw myself at dad sobbing.After I've finally calmed down I just stare into space while still in his arms.He then whispers in my ear
Dad:We need to talk my princess
I simply nod my head as Luba walks in.
Luba:Mahlez suka,you had your own turn
Me:but yo...
Luba;(interrupting)no move nam I want a hug from our dad.
Dad smiles widely as he removes himself from my grasp.Haybo, I just pout because wow.Luba hugs dad for a few moments before letting go of him.
Dad: I feel so much better and loved.Now I can die in peace knowing tha...
Us:(interrupting)Don't you even dare die on us kodwa we just met you.
Dad:(laughing)okay ndinivile ke my kids.
Okay mom was right when she said he's dramatic because what is this?
Dad:Kutyiwa ntoni apha andilambe!
He says this while rubbing his tummy.Haybo lomntu
Me:Kutheni ungatyanga on your way tata?
Wabo:Hay nyan
He simply just shakes his head
Dad: I was not hungry then but I'm hungry now.Besides I don't go well with fast foods zindenzela isisu.
Yho this person in front of me is a whole mood sozee!
Me:I'll make you something to eat.
Dad:Make sure it has meat ndiyakucela ntombi yam.Makhwenkwe am let's go watch soccer together.
They all stand up following dad like sheep.He already knows his way around this house?
I'm so tired but ke a girl gotta do what she has to do.Anyways I go to the kitchen and take out the meat from the freezer and all the other ingredients I will use to make a full meal. I defrost the meat then start chopping everything else.Once the pots are up and cooking I text my friends
**ELITE BYTXHES **
Me:Molweni zichomi zam 👋
Kamva:Hi babe 💕
Nathi:Heyyyyy
Siba:Howzit girlfriend😘
Me:Ninjani?
Rex:We are good hle.
Kamva:Who is we?😭
Me:Haybo mngani 😔
Kamva:I miss my man.
Me :Let's face time
Kamva:Ngeyiphi I IPhone chomi?😭
Me:Let's video call ke😭😔
Kamva:Yazi usile wena 😣
We switch to a video call and I put my phone next to the fruit basket as I check my pots.
Sibahle:Uphekani babe?
Me:Full meal
Kamva:Mmmmhm ndavele ndalamba
We just all just laugh at his silliness.
Rex:Kodwa nawe awusuthi...didn't I just make you a wrap my felele?
Oh I forgot to say that Rex now lives with Kamva ,she said it will be awkward for her to be in the same house as my father.Side eye
Kamva:That's beside the point marn Ratex.
Rex:Haw ndibhonyelwe kanti yini ?
We laugh at their silliness,these two are always at it.I don't know how they are surviving living with each other.Just as we are chatting I hear loud laughter and commotion coming from the lounge.These Guys!
Nathi:Haybo wenza ipati ,so much noise?
Me:Noooo those are my brothers and...dad
Them:(shocked) What ?!When?How?Njani?
Me:(giggling)one question at a time guys.
Siba:You have brothers?
Me:Yes
Nathi:How many?
Me:4 of them
Kamva:Are they hot?
Me:Nah don't even
They giggle and then shift to being serious again.
Nathi:You mentioned something about your dad...explain.
I sigh.I tell them what happened besides the part I cut my wrists of course and to say they are shocked would be an understatement.
Siba:So how are you feeling?
Me:(sighing)I'm happy to know that I'm having another parent I guess.He's not a bad guy if I may say.So far he has shown us that he's willing to step up and be there for us.I just don't know how to feel about having new siblings and a whole new mother.Nonetheless I'm happy and excited.
Nathi:ohh friend,everything will work out just fine.Don't stress yourself over things you can't control,focus on yourself.
Me:(wiping my tears)Who's chopping onions?
They all giggle
Kamva:(British accent)You are the one chopping them ...my chef
We all burst out laughing because wow.
Rex:(giggling)Eww no th...that sounded horrible.
I hear my dad shouting my name.
Me:Guys I gotta go
Them:Alright byee.
I turn down the stove and head towards the tv room.
Me:Tata?
Dad:Come here.
I go to him.
Dad:Let's go talk outside in the patio.
Me:Oh okay,Guys please keep watch of the pots so the food doesn't burn.
They agree and I walk out with dad.
Dad:So tell me why are you hurting yourself?
I look at his blank facial expression and I swallow hard.
Me:I...I...what do you mean ?
Dad:Give me your hands .
I shift uncomfortably in my seat but nonetheless give him my hands.
Dad:Bring up your jersey sleeves.
I do as I'm told and I just know that he really knows what I've been up to.How?
Dad:Remove these bandages Samukelisiwe...right now.
I swallow my saliva and start removing my bandages slowly .He looks so angry or rather pissed.
Dad:Why? Kutheni uzisika?
I don't respond since I don't know what to say.I see a lone tear falling down his face.
Dad:Ngoba Amahle?
Me:T...ta...tata I don't know why.I guess it's to ease the pain
Dad:Pain? Pain yantoni?
Me:Life has felt overwhelming,depressing lately,like a heavy cloud that just won't lift.Each day seems to blend into the next ,filled with a sense of hopelessness that's hard to shake off.I often find myself struggling to find joy in things that once made me happy like music, drawing and reading.It certainly feels like I'm carrying a weight that just gets heavier each passing second, minute,hour,day,week,month and year.It's as if colors have faded from my world,leaving everything dull and gray.I long for brighter days and a sense of peace,but right now,it feels like an uphill battle.I'm a saddist tata wam.
I say as I choke on my own tears.Dad stands up and hugs me tightly.
Dad:Wow...I d...don't know what to say.
Me:(smiling)There's nothing for you to say tata.I've been bullied for years by younger,older,middle aged people because of my dark skin and weight.I'm insecure to the point where I don't believe it when people are complimenting me.The voice in the back of my head just tells me they are lying or they are just playing with me.Mom's death made things in my life even worse.I first tried therapy to help me heal and deal with my pain but that didn't help.So my other alternative was cutting my wrists just to numb the pain.Don't get me wrong dad...I do have loving and over protective brothers and friends but that's just not enough.I've tried suicide but that didn't pan out as well as you can see I'm here.
Dad:(deep breath)I'm here now my daughter.You are perfect the way you are.Please don't let what other people think about you define who you are.Learn to love,respect and cherish the way you are and look.If you don't love yourself then who will my princess?Have a relationship with God and don't let the devil convey you to a place of darkness.Come on now you're more than what you think you are,you are destined for greater things. And those things won't locate you if you're still acting like this,I'm truly hurt by your actions.Do you think your mom is happy where she is,knowing that her only daughter is slowly killing herself?Please stop ndiyakucela mafungwashe wam