Truly Forgiven(adopted by Jennifer Lawrence/ final book)

Ch.8: If I Wasn't Born

•••Jade's PoV•••

I'm just waking up and I already know that it's going to be an awful day. For starters, I never get to talk to Grey, and we've been kind of going out, so I broke up with him. I don't really like relationships, they're just a bunch of work and effort, and I'm too young for that.

I check social media as I push my hair out of my face. I hear Dad call to mom about her phone ringing in the other room. I decide to get up and go to the bathroom to wash my face. After I wash my face, I pat it dry with a warm towel that's refreshing for a day like this, but I'm trying to stay positive. Mom and Dad are still speaking in the other room about someone who told them something on the phone.

"Damn that James Franco. I wish I never met him! I wish none of this ever happened!" Mom cries. "No, Jen. We will get through this. No ones going to hurt us we'll be fine, I swear. And don't say that, then you wouldn't have had Jade." I hear Dad saying to comfort her. There's a long silence before I hear her say, "Still." Tears begin to form in my eyes from what I heard. My own Mom doesn't even care that I was born. It doesn't surprise me though because lately I don't even care that I was born. I'm never going to forget what she said.

I walk out of my room and down stairs and I assume they have finished talking because Dad is making blueberry pancakes. "Good morning, Sweetie." He says. "Morning." I say sitting down at the table. I hear Jen make her way downstairs with Willow.

"Hey, Jade." She smiles. I just look down at the table. Her smile fades. Willow begins to spit up all over her. Karma. "Jade, will you go get a rag, please." She asks handling Willow. I still don't respond. "Go get the rag. I'm not asking." She says her tone harsher. I still don't move. Let's see how she likes it without a daughter for free labor. "Jade Rosalin Lawrence, I am your mother. You have to listen to me." She warns. "But you wish you weren't." I retort. She looks taken back. "Don't speak to your mother like that." Dad says. "But you heard her, Dad!" I yell. "She didn't mean it." He says. "Ugh, I'm going to my room!" I yell. "Only if you leave the phone." Jen says with her hand on her hip and other one holding Willow. "Really?" I say. She nods. I leave my phone and stomp upstairs.

She's so rude. She said she didn't care if I was born! She doesn't care about me. Her life would be picture perfect if it wasn't for me. Oscar winner married to co star Josh Hutcherson with a beautiful baby named Willow, but no there has to be me. Jade. The one who ruins everything.

My thoughts are interrupted by a knock on the door. Jen let's herself in. "You know I didn't mean that right." Tears threaten to come back up. "I love you and Im so happy that you're my daughter. You mean everything to me. I Love you so much." She says standing looking at me. "Well, I don't. I hate you. I wish I was never born so I wouldn't have to live with you." I spit. I can see the hurt in her eyes. "Well, If that's how you feel..." She says letting tears slip from her eyes. "I didn't know I was that bad of a mother." She cries. Before I can stop her and tell her I'm sorry, she walks out slamming the door behind her.

A/N PLEASE DONT KILL ME. IS THIS EMOTIONAL FOR YALL? BECAUSE NOT GONNA LIE I CRIED. TELL ME WHATCHA THINK IN THE COMMENTS ~JLOVESPIZZA