A THOUSAND AND ONE WORDS

in the corner

our friendship is odd

was odd

it was never quite right

not dissimilar to us i guess

there was always something off about it

something that didn't click properly

and when i took a step back you took 10 forward

it was just a misunderstanding

a difference in communication

you wanted something i didn't have

and do i feel bad about how it happened?

yes. absolutely.

because i still care for you

even if you don't believe me anymore

you mean a lot to me

but i cannot live in this dusty afternoon anymore

i'm sorry that you felt like i hurt you intentionally

it was never my intention for you to get hurt

it was supposed to be easy

a temporary friendship

but nothing's ever easy, is it?

and when i tried to enforce the temporary

you tried to make it permanent

i have to learn to trust my gut

there's a reason my fight-or-flight activated

there was something wrong and i knew it

maybe not consciously but i knew

and now that i'm standing my ground on it

i'm not falling for your pity messages

you feel you have the right to turn my friends

to call me a bitch in front of my face

i thought we had mutual respect.

but i have lost all trust in you now

i wish i could say it was right person wrong time

but this has been going on for months now

i say right person wrong lifetime

because your presence "everywhere i go"

is suffocating me endlessly

all i can pray for now

is that nineteen days come and go quickly

i'm sorry.