A THOUSAND AND ONE WORDS

messy, yet beautiful

i wish i could time-travel

to go back to before it imploded

before we imploded

i wish i could turn back the clock

for just one more glimpse of your smile

the sweet taste of your friendship

because life seems so bittersweet now

and there is no amount of artificial sweets

no measured, precise substitutions

that can change the everlasting taste you left

i wish i could go back to my innocence

before i felt the reminders of our crossing

the imprints you left on my heart

that i cannot seem to forget

in the corner, always watching me

ensuring that i don't get the chance to move on

and i don't know if i could

or if i would choose to

but not having the opportunity

leaves us in this imbalance

between mortal enemies and best friends

a metronome swinging back and forth

yet it always ends up comes back

i wish you never happened

that i lived without the knowledge of your existence

safe from the heartbreak

but i also wish that it happened exactly as it did

because as you said

the good memories forever outweigh the bad

and even with amnesia

i don't believe i could ever forget you

yes, it may be messy now

but there is something hauntingly beautiful

about how we both changed

for better or for worse

til death do us part.