Love Soaked In Rain

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫-𝟐𝟎 || 𝐄𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲

The whole thing is running out of my head.

I didn't expect I have to face this type of worst situation in my life. I didn't expect I have to face Ryan again in my life. Tears are falling repeatedly from my eyes, pouring out of shane and anger. I am leaning against the basin,trying to put back my amor together. My heart starts to pound heavily against my chest,when I feel Ivan is standing behind just a few inches from me.

He inhales a deep breath. His warm hot breath fans across my neck. Then he presses himself to me, I can feel him. Hot radiations are switching from him to me. He grips my both shoulders softly. Then he drops his head on my shoulder, trying to console me, trying to make me feel better.

But I've been ruined inside Ivan, you can't even fix me right now.

"Leave me alone,please. I'm not feeling well. " My voice is colder than an icecube. I ask him, I didn’t even have the mental stability to look at him.

He is quiet. His hands are rubbing my arms. I can't help but turn to him.
"This is ladies washroom,  Ivan!" I warn him.
He suddenly presses his thumb agains my lips, making me stop whatever I was going to say.

"Do you think I fucking care? All I do care is only you." He demands. "If I want, I can book this whole place right now, if we need to sought out things between us."

He is so careless. He never listens to me. I know that. I push him softly, increasing some gap between us. But he stands firmly, not moving a centimeter. My strengths are nothing compared to his.

"What do you want? " I ask while looking at my feet. I don’t have the courage to look at his eyes. " I don’t want any messes any more, please. "

"So, you are saying,  I am responsible for all of this situation? " His jaw tightens.
"I didn't blame you! Don't find double meanings Ivan."

He presses himself harder to me. My lower body is tightly glued to the basin,so as his body is glued to mine. My elbows are resting besides me, to balance my weight myself. He leans down and down on me untill me body curves to a perfect C shape.

"Tulip, you have dealed with a very wrong person. I don't know how did you involved with that bastard. But I won’t let him destroy your life. "
"Do you know him?  Then why are you being 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘷𝘦 in this matter? Let me handle it? " I ask him in wonder.
"Possessive? " He groans. "So you wonder why I am being possessive? Shouldn’t I? When a third person is going to ruin my love's life? I shouldn’t react? I shouldn’t take any steps?"
"Ivan, please don't argue with me!"
"I don't want to, Emily. But you’re speaking as you are not sane. You may haven’t see his real face yet. But I know, I know how he has destroyed my life, my family and my happiness.  But - well, fuck it. Now you have to explain what business you are having with him? What is your connection with him? Why he claimed you as his 'love'? What did he mean?"

He asks too many question at onc,  leaving me confused what to answer first. I choose to remain silent. But a minute later, he softly lifts my chin up and looks at my eyes directly.
"I,  I want answer. No silence. You can hear me,right?" He whispers.
I can see how much he is affected. How his feelings are now after discovering the stupidest and dumbest thing he was never meant to hear. I know his heart is aching,burning, turning into plain ashes, searching for a positive answer that'll relief him. But it will only pour some more petrol in in flaming heart.

"We had a relationship,  four years ago. " I reply, I don’t have the courage to look at his eyes.
"You didnt care to share with me. So you are trying to hide it from me? Ain't you?"
"Don't misunderstand, Ivan! Ryan is the cursed chapter in my whole 21 years life,that I want to forget. And I did too, untill he shows up again all of a sudden. I don’t have communication with him anymore. But he stalks me,even he texted me last night with an unknown number. But I didn’t figure out -
" You didn’t even care to tell me that a random number is trying to reach out you from last night. " He states calmly, his voice is husky.
"Do I have to explain every single thing that happens in every single minute in my life?"
"Of course, you have to!"

I sigh as I push him, I'm feeling numb, standing here in a same position for a damn long time, as Ivan is encountering me. When I notice he has soften his grip, I push his hands aside and try my best to run away. But before I even come far to reach the doorway, he grabs my wrist and emits me to the opposite wall of the basin. He holds me tightly by my waist and crashes his lips into mine,  before I can even proceed.

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