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Disappointment in Myself

Disappointment in Myself

I look in the mirror and hate what I see,
Thought by now I'd be more than just me.
I had big plans, I swore I'd fly,
But now I'm just watching time pass by.

I thought I'd be further, doing more,
But I'm stuck here, feet glued to the floor.
I keep thinking, "Why am I still here?
What happened to the girl with no fear?"

It's like I've let myself down, failed my own dreams,
Everything's harder than it seemed.
I try, I push, but it's never enough,
And pretending I'm okay feels so rough.

I should be proud, or at least halfway there,
But instead, I'm lost, gasping for air.
I'm disappointed, yeah, that's the truth,
In the person I am, in my wasted youth.

But I'll keep going, even if I crawl,
Hoping one day I'll stand tall.
Maybe this version of me's not so bad,
Even if right now, I just feel sad.